“Live up to the time, the creation of non-stop, this article is participating in 2021 year-end summary essay competition”
Early in the morning, fog everywhere, I thought there was no light, but every day there is no lack of sun.
Dribs and drabs, still remember the bottom of my heart.
Grassroots born, college graduate, an ordinary to ordinary programmer of 25 and a half.
Is a drop of water in the ocean, is a fallen leaf in the maple forest, is in the sea of ordinary individuals to the poles.
The first year of practice, confused and do not know heaven and earth, behind entrepreneurship is not half and the middle way retreat.
In the second year of advancement, cognition and expertise make up for it, holding the whole front end on your own.
In the third year of confusion, ego and temptation make difficult choices, and in the end reason trumps desire.
In the fourth year of the leap, I will be off work and thinking, and welcome the good news that the company is preparing to go public.
Young and frivolous, who is not confused?
internship
I was a loser myself, and I always thought I was great, and THE first year of my internship was the best I could do.
The direction of university is H5. I studied in school for two years because of junior college, and went out for internship in the third year. I think timer is the most difficult JS I have ever learned.
I began to reflect on myself in the first two months of my internship. I always thought that my ability was not bad, and I should casually mix food to eat when I went out. I also said that the salary of this industry was relatively high, and of course I looked forward to it. When we were about to get there, people inside the company started teasing us and sent us away. Then in some words of the roommate, we began to shut out.
Go to bed at 2 o ‘clock in the evening, get up at 7 o ‘clock in the day, take a lunch break from 12:30 to 2 o ‘clock, and then go to 4 o ‘clock for table tennis.
This is not called self-discipline, it is called diligence can compensate for stupidity.
Two months later, I went home, never leaving the house, only one thing, to finish the course I had not finished. And roommate agreed after a month to go out to look for a job, time is up, was water, from then on to see him, he became wechat and QQ living dead.
A person, with 4000 yuan came to Chengdu.
It was the first time I came to a real big city.
I don’t know how to take the subway, I have to pay three down on my house, and my resume drops into the ocean.
There was only one concept in my mind, and time passed quickly and for a long time.
When I was about to give up, IN a QQ group, I saw someone said that there was a company recruiting front end, I hesitated for a long time or feel that the voice is not only excited but also very humble.
I’m not afraid. I’m shy. I’m so shy that I’m nervous talking to people.
I didn’t say I could do it, I just said, can you give me a chance, I can try.
That’s how I got my first job, 2K.
I didn’t stop. I got off work late at night and got up early in the day.
I remember that the average time I went to bed was two o ‘clock at night.
Everyone should start to swell and become dissatisfied when they settle down. I am.
Two months ago, I left my job, with my ego.
Out of the time, very relaxed, saved a sum of money (currently no money, living in the company so save a lot, not disorderly spending), not much but very satisfied.
Unfortunately, after half a month, the resume was empty again. I remember that only one of them decided to admit me after thinking it over, at 1.5K, free of food and accommodation.
I went home, and I left with my own spirit.
I went home to study for a month. A friend I had known for seven years on the Internet said that I wanted to start my own business. I did my own business before, such as selling things and doing Taobao.
One person, green train, two days and one night, the train nausea, drank half a bottle of pulse.
I came to a strange city with my own non-standard Mandarin, even if I haven’t corrected it yet.
Joy at the beginning, melancholy in the middle, at the end of each rush things.
Eight months, failure, home.
I made a lot of friends and experienced a lot of things. When I was busy, I slept 2-3 hours a day, cried several times, and ate instant noodles and fans that turned my stomach.
I returned to the company and was caught off guard by its development after eight months of precipitation.
So the most distant is not the distance, but the idea.
choice
If the mind does not stop, then the person will not stop.
Make up and progress, precipitation for a year and a half, got recognition and recognition, nourish the expansion of the heart.
Yeah, I had a decision to make, a tough one.
Although the present conditions are not good enough, they are not bad either. During this period, a factory opened more than three times the conditions.
I can keep up with the joneses, but THAT doesn’t mean I can control my desires.
Because I compare, I can weigh what’s going on right now, even if it’s wrong.
But I said no.
The boss and I talked for a long time, and the boss talked to me.
The reason I refuse people is simple: they don’t convince me.
I said: When it comes to real benefits, no one will listen to too many explanations, and I don’t need to measure my future with a big pie. It’s easy for me to stay, because I have you when I need you most. I know I’m bad and impulsive, but I’m definitely not one to return the favor.
Even though we had millions of users, I was the only front end.
Tired is affecting your mind, winding is your soul, kidnapping is your body.
Fortunately, I made the right choice.
I got something similar a year later, a little late, but with high expectations for the future.
Some lost is not really lost, just as if some is not really get.
I’m glad to be looking at this question a year later.
Our company ushered in the news of preparing to go public, which is undoubtedly sublimation of the soul for a member of a start-up team.
If we can find the right direction in the confusion, then we will respond to the freshmen.
Quantitative change
The increase of several times each year hits my restless heart.
The front end team, from me to more than 40. In April, 21, I met Longge (another person in charge of our team now). I learned a lot from him and made up for my own shortcomings, although SOMETIMES I pretended not to admit that he had been teaching me.
For the hardest part, it took me two months to get out.
I felt completely disoriented and as if I had never found my way.
The pressure of the team and the business of the company made me feel overwhelmed. When encountering problems, I put out fires everywhere but could not solve the current situation. Later, I met Boshen, another mentor in my career.
It was a lesson for me and my boss, and we slowly solved the problem and grew up a lot.
I am a very impatient person, but NOW I am a very gentle person.
Gentle does not mean weak execution.
Later, the company’s business line expanded and I moved to another team. More than 60 people, so we probably have a r&d team of about 100 people on hand.
It just seemed that way, because I knew what my role was.
Last year, I went off-duty.
It doesn’t bring relief, it brings responsibility.
I kind of saw the light, but WHAT I needed more was to touch it.
change
I’m not autistic, but I have low self-esteem. It took me a long time to go from shyness to generosity.
I know what I’m missing, and I’ll fix it, even if it’s hard, even if it doesn’t work, and it’s one thing to do it, and another to do it well.
It seemed to grow, and it seemed not to grow.
Now recall these years of life, it seems that there are still a lot of regrets, but unfortunately can not go back.
As for life, I seem to know what I want now, and I don’t seem to know.
Maybe that’s what people are, a little confused but not completely confused.
love
In the words of a friend, contrast.
At work, I’m all thumbs. I’m a failure.
I met a lot of girls. But none of them made it together, even if they were good.
In 2022, hope you make a breakthrough.
conclusion
Feel the company’s cultivation, 2022 we continue to refueling duck ~,
Long wind and waves will sometimes, straight sail to the sea.
Finally, I wish you a fruitful career and a home to return to love.