Happened to see the hot list “female, 30+, married, childless front end workers 2021 year-end summary”, feeling quite deep, review this year’s experience, in addition to anxiety, the rest is only confused.

28 years old, working in Beijing, bought a marriage house in Tianjin, no greed for material, thinking of the new house down with her boyfriend to Tianjin to start a new life, not big rich big expensive, just want to be safe and stable. Turned over every year the country takes an examination of, province takes an examination of, army civilian service recruitment requirement, suit the society to recruit undergraduate student plus the post that blame party member is little pitiable, even if you are 985211 school comes out, the room that discusses a bit on this kind of rigid problem also does not have. At the beginning of the year did take an examination of on-the-job graduate student’s plan, thinking that although is not full-time, but fortunately on record of formal schooling degree is graduate student, the leeway of choice is a few more, return self-confidence to sign up for some 985 relevant major. But with the end of the exam, now just to cross the national line. But even if we do make it, there are many choices.

I graduated from the university in 2016 and started to work in the same year. I worked in front end development of a listed company transforming from a conventional industry to the Internet for nearly four years. I arrived in this state-owned enterprise in April 2020. It was almost two years ago. How can I say it? In order to stay away from 996, I chose a company that looks not very attractive in the offer at the beginning of my job-hopping. However, with the company’s reorganization in 2021, some unnecessary problems are becoming more and more serious, and MY heart is getting more and more tired.

In this year, I did not do any development work. Due to the trust of my direct leadership, I was confronted with a variety of miscellaneous work: writing various documents, doing demand analysis, drawing prototypes, handling some project operation work, recruiting interviews… It seems that my work is rich and fulfilling, but in reality, I’m afraid I learn very little.

If this year is my transformation road, then the current result can only be described as “less than half a bottle of shaking”. Technically, it has stopped at the level of early 21, and the project management has not completed a complete project from beginning to end.

As for the working environment, with the growth of working time and my trust from the direct leader, he would tease me about some situations, gradually understand some situations, and also understand the work style of the direct leader, which can be summed up as tired. Seeing that the salary of the person I recruited is higher than mine, the company’s recruitment and salary increase has been no follow-up, the operation of the direct leadership is more and more confusing, it is likely to job-hopping after the Spring Festival. Job-hopping, and women have to face a variety of social concerns. Not have not thought to continue to water in this company for a year, the baby’s problem was solved first, but even their own future road is not clear, and how to ensure the children’s life. But where is his own path?

Anxiety can not solve the reality, confusion can not explore the road. 2022, large probability or to continue to prepare for the postgraduate entrance examination. Not sure whether this road is right, but life can not be measured by right and wrong, the only thing I’m afraid to do is to adhere to their own persistence.

Here, and all do not inherit property, rely on their own efforts to live a solid people.