Leave the station
(132).
When the holiday was over, I packed my bags and set out again. Spring Festival small long vacation, steal a few days free floating life. Although occasionally disturbed by some common things and people, but every meal was greeted, clothes were washed, and there were beautiful girls to chat with, this imperial life is really a bit difficult to part with. Back in the capital, I’m afraid only loneliness and busyness always accompany.
The journey from home to the imperial capital is smooth, but a little difficult. I need to take a bus from the village to the county seat, take a bus from the county seat to the city, and then take the K or Z train from the city to Beijing West Railway Station. The total journey took about 4 hours.
Near noon, in the early morning, I hitchhiked to the county seat with my cousin Boya. Along the way, bo Cliff is very interested in rural Taobao, consulting me a lot of related problems, threatened to do rural low version of Ma Yun. I tried my best to cooperate with his performance and talked with him passionately about the rural Internet economy.
Bo Ya dropped me off near the county bus station. Before leaving home, I felt it was time to tell hua Mei all the things I had said from the bottom of my heart.
I called hua Mei to meet her at a fast food restaurant near the station. Hua Mei is not shy, promised to be very straightforward. In order to have enough time to say goodbye to Hua Mei, I changed the train ticket two hours later.
Lunch time, Hua Mei arrived late. She wore a black woolen coat and a checked scarf. Complexion as white as snow, red lips as fire, especially two eyebrow, like a great calligrapher masterpiece. Not exactly dressed up, but definitely thoughtful.
My heart was racing with bursts of rapture mixed with uncontrollable fear. The way she dressed today was different from the purity of her past. Beauty makes me a little stressed and a little impulsive.
As I expected, I was greeted with a flood of eyes. Several men with female companions also pretended to fix their hair to take a peek.
Read their expressions, some sad, some confused, some disdain, some unwilling. Every time I meet a beautiful woman and an ugly man walking together, MY heart will be like a “good cabbage pig arch” not happy mood.
“What time is the train?”
Hua Mei took off her coat, presumably because the sweater had shrunk, and her delicate figure was outlined to the imagination. I am afraid the blood vessel inside nasal cavity is too too fragile, then bow slightly, focus the line of sight on the tableware of dining table.
I picked up the menu and handed it to Hua Mei. See what to eat?”
Hua mei repeatedly waved his hand: “You come, I can.”
“We don’t have a decent restaurant in this shabby county. Come to Beijing with me later. Let’s go on a quick trip, and I’ll treat you to dinner.”
“All jokes. I’m on duty here. I’ve been sneaking out.”
“Ask a few days off, I take you to play a few days.” I raised my eyebrows.
“No, I can’t.” Hua Mei shook her head.
I called on the waiter to order a few home-cooked dishes and ordered a pot of tea for Hua-mei.
Hua Mei held a teacup filled with hot water and stared at me: “You are a brilliant student and have achieved a lot in your studies. Don’t you think about coming back to build your hometown?”
“Well, the Internet industry is different from other industries. Good companies are concentrated in first-tier cities. I’d never get a job if I came back here.”
It was not unheard of for me to consider returning home to choose a career. Whenever hometown can play their own strengths, I certainly will not go away, such as duckweed drift.
“Is also, after all, or big cities more opportunities.” Hua Mei took a sip of hot water, leaving a faint lip mark on the mouth of the cup.
“Nowadays young people are going to big cities. Don’t you think about going out for a walk?” I paused for a moment and looked at Hua Mei tenderly. “You can come to Beijing, and we can be a companion. I will take care of you.”
Hua mei frowned: “I this junior college degree, go to Beijing what can do?”
“There aren’t more pharmacies in Beijing than here?”
“My certificates have gone to other provinces, and they are not recognized.”
“You can take it again.” I know it’s hard for me to stand up and talk, but I still want to fight.
“Those certificates are hard to get.” Hua-mei pouted and shook her head like a rattle. “Beijing belongs to you brilliant students. I don’t want to join in the fun.
A tongue, Hua mei unmoved, I also not good to give her pressure. She wiped off her lipstick with a wet towel. She must have been famished, so she ate her food, ignoring the goddess.
Eating is nothing more than testing each other. Between me and Hua Mei is a mountain. I’m stuck at the top, she’s stuck at the bottom. We were all holed up in our own fences, waiting for the other to make the first move. But, we all don’t have the courage to be desperate.
When I graduated from college, Li Hong asked me if I could go to Germany with her, but I refused. Now, Hua Mei test I will not go back home to work, I hesitate. I am still too honest and timid, dare not give people too much commitment, for fear not to live up to.
However, as time goes by, maybe one day I will change my mind and come back to build my hometown, or Hua Mei will change her mind and go to Beijing for gold. Or we move to a new city to start a new life. Life is full of uncertainty. Take it one step at a time.
I thought that after this dinner, my pursuit of Hua Mei would be in the balance, but the uncertainty is greater, uncertainty means hope and disappointment coexist.
(133).
I boarded the train for Beijing with some disappointment.
The train was packed to the brim, mostly with migrants coming to Beijing. At first, everyone is still watching mobile phones, playing games, the carriage is very noisy. After an hour, most people choose to close their eyes and rest. Only the carts of snacks take pains to weave their way up and down the aisles.
I tried to sleep, but my head was occupied with boredom. I simply turned my head and looked out the window. The winter north is depressed.
The green train stops almost every station. People go up and down, but there are no fewer people in the carriage. Halfway through the train, it began to snow outside. The yellow earth was gradually covered with snow.
“Come to Beijing sometime. The snow in the Forbidden City is so beautiful.” I sent it to Hua-mei on wechat.
In order to arouse her interest, I also specially from the Internet to find a few pictures of the Forbidden City snow to send her over. In fact, in all my years in Beijing, I have never been able to visit the Forbidden City on a snowy day.
“Qingming Festival, May Day, Beijing has different scenery all the year round.” I added.
“Yes, I’ll go if I get a chance.” Hua Mei’s reply was polite but perfunctory.
After a long silence, I sent another message to wechat: “Think about working in Beijing?”
I still haven’t given up lobbying Hua Mei.
“Well, I can’t go away with a sick old woman at home to look after.”
Some things are easier to say when not in face-to-face conversation. Hua Mei threw out a new reason, more like an excuse.
I just feel a chill in my back, very sad. I’d like to say get your mother and father, and I’ll take care of it for you. But I don’t have the courage and confidence to say it, I can’t even take care of my old father.
In the remote area, the signal of mobile phone is intermittent, and my chat with Hua Mei is intermittent. Finally both sides can not stand not to force of the network, they agreed to talk about another day.
I finally fell asleep and woke up. The train was staggering into Beijing. At dusk, the carriage began to ring out “Beijing is the capital of our great socialist motherland, is the place where the whole nation yearned for, is also the world famous cultural city……” The sound of the radio.
Like a long-distance runner crossing the finish line, the train slows down as it enters Beijing. It makes its way slowly across the loop, into the station, and finally onto the platform.
I carried my luggage through the crowd and walked out of Beijing West Railway Station from beier Exit to the square in front of the station. Standing outdoors, everywhere looked, white wrapped. Hardworking sanitation workers are wearing heavy coats, Shouting, hot to clear the snow on the road.
Even with thick snow and strong wind, Beijing can reveal its brown tarmac overnight. This is the imperial capital of human destiny, this is the imperial capital of ten million people’s dreams, this is the imperial capital of people love and hate……
Beijing, I come back, the New Year, please treat me well.
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