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The wind

This article is my (a small front) after many times of psychological consultation, I would like to give this literature to everyone who wants to live well ☀️

Dear readers, hello, I am the little cold grass that will accompany you for a year 🌿. Since this year, I have met a lot of friends through writing articles. Maybe some people have met me through my articles or some strange ways, this front-end engineering lion 🦁️ is a little different.

Although my articles are based on some techniques and funny fun practices 🎁, this time I want to say the content is not quite the same as before. A lot of people think I’ve had a great year, but it’s not. I’ve been plagued by some things, like:

• anxiety
• depression

Anxiety and depression began to accompany me at some point, perhaps when I was very young, after countless days and nights with no one to talk to and repressed feelings in my heart, an overly sensitive and lonely child. Repressed heart and complex emotions in one day quietly erupt:

• vertigo
• strangeness
• .

The feeling of pain sends a child into a bottomless pit, and not only that, but also faces:

• Relatives of concern and urged gradually become a small knife I scratch black and blue all over
• Other people’s cold comments countless times let me chill
• .

Hence the name cold grass hahaha.

Every bad thought had been stirred, and had been in that thought for a long time:

• I am lonely and unworthy of love
• A man who has fallen to the bottom and been ignored by others
• What do I exist for? Is it meaningless
• .

Gradually, the world became strange. It has been about seven or eight years.

I can’t go into detail about the memories I’ve buried in my heart, but all I know is this:

The wind is blowing and the ground is messy.

Therefore, I have a deep affection for Jilin University, because it is the harbor that gives me a chance to stand up again when I am at my lowest point. It is also another home for me.

stumbles

This year, I met a lot of friendly people and started some psychological counseling, from which I also have some feelings. This chapter is about some psychological counseling records, which have been done five or six times. It is time to do some summary and review.

First of all, under the guidance of the consultant, I reviewed my childhood experience, and then began to break down some important events and make a review of my weekly mood.

I still remember the first time I recalled the past under guidance. After the consultation, I turned off the light and cried in the small rental room alone. Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.

I can’t remember many of the sessions in detail, so here are some important points:

• Competent: I can do something
• Build personal connections: Build emotional connections with others and respect your feelings
• Sense of autonomy: Feeling what your heart wants to do
• The influence of the unconscious mind on man

– Here because the author is too vegetables can not express clearly and was brutally deleted, let us despise this cruel author “cold grass” –

Cold grass, be sure to read “Mr. Toad goes to therapy.”

zhuifeng

I have always been a child of hard living, and I am sure I will pursue self-worth more and more in the future. In fact, a lot of people will discuss the meaning of living, and I found that since my work, more and more people discuss this question, I think and give my current answer.

When I was young, I dreamed of becoming a famous person in history. Later, I experienced more and found that WHAT I should do is love. To love the grass and trees in front of you, to feel the wind and grass, to experience what is happening now, to feel their own emotions, to cherish the present time.

To live in the moment, to feel the moment, to cherish the moment, to go through, to experience, to hate, to love, to live, seems to have no meaning, but this is the most real meaning.

Everyone has his own ambition, so don’t let the trafficker anxiety get carried away and walk in his own direction

As for what I’m going to do next year and in the future, I don’t know yet, but it’s definitely something I like.

Finally, thanks for the big Rabbit bouquet made by Big Cub ~ happy ✨

Here is a quote from miyazaki hayao’s film:

When the wind blows, we try to survive.

conclusion

Although the description of this article may be confusing, it is also written with courage, I wish you know what to live for.

At the end, it ends with mika Nakajima's song

There was a time when I wanted to call it a day

For watching seagulls wailing on the dock

Seabirds drifting with the current

Peck at my past and fly away

There was a time when I wanted to call it a day

Because apricot blossom on my birthday

Nap in the shade of the sifting sun

Probably like a worm that didn’t regenerate

It’s time to settle down in the dirt

The lighthouse at the Mint Fishing port

Rusty arch Bridges abandoned bicycles

Standing in front of the stove in the wooden station

The heart can’t start anywhere

Today is the same as yesterday

If you want a better tomorrow, take action today

I know, I know, but

There was a time when I wanted to call it a day

Because the heart is already empty

The heart can’t be filled with tears

Because what do I still want

There was a time when I wanted to call it a day

Because of the untied shoelaces

I can’t tie it properly

Like you don’t know how to tie someone down

There was a time when I wanted to call it a day

Because the boy stared at me

Kneel on the bed and apologize

Say sorry to the old me

A faint light shone from the computer

The noise from the upstairs room

The sound of the intercom at the door

The boy trapped in the birdcage covered his ears

Fighting an invisible enemy

He was the Don Quixote of a three-pyeong room

The end was ugly

There was a time when I wanted to call it a day

Because some people say I’m cold

Crying to be loved

Because I finally feel the warmth of the world

There was a time when I wanted to call it a day

Your beautiful smile

All I can think about is killing myself

After all, because alive this matter is too deep

There was a time when I wanted to call it a day

I haven’t met you yet

Because there are people just like you

I like the world a little bit

Because there are people just like you

I began to look forward to the world a little

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To be continued

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