Time flies, time flies, as if high school this sentence is a necessary beginning, but also a necessary word. However, high school seems to be yesterday ah, unconsciously, I have been 26, to the strong, the independence, the fade of childish, take responsibility of the age. Oh, time is merciless.

Work the 5th year, coordinate Shenzhen, just came at the beginning of this year, average monthly salary is not reached, deposit is zero, in debt dozens of big not slip away, hometown has a house on his name, it seems that life is good?

But I often do not have or the real sense, very little happiness, every day in self anxiety, every day to make do, but also forced my girlfriend with me anxiety, work together… Until today, I found a word, struggle force is to describe me.

The main reason is that they have been brainwashed too much by the environment, media, education and so on, and have no clear understanding of the world

Tactical diligence to cover up a sense of insecurity, or rather, strategic laziness

The stock market, the currency market to do the most tender leek, free overtime for several hours at night, only for a few tens of yuan of transportation subsidies, stay up late writing code, take life for money, was cheated by the capitalist option

A certain is typical. In a certain period, some people accidentally choose the right industry, get on the bus, ignore the rules of The Times, and attribute their success to their own struggle. By self-harm type of struggle squeeze peer profits, dry down Ericsson, datang and a series of peers, now it is their turn to be unemployed, the general level of even a job-hopping place all his mother did not. Isn't that what a struggling idiot is?

Emmmm, I feel like such a person, a person who is touched and comforted by himself.

But I really want to live an easy life, with an ordinary family, a lover, a stable job, and no need to worry about losing my job every day, and no need to worry about what to do after THE age of 35.

I want to let oneself happy every day, I saw a lot of books, a little bit to learn how to take care of yourself, I know condition, as I know unity, I know to feel the love around you, but good difficult, really good hard ah, blame their own voice appear constantly, it’s too noisy, : why is it so hard to happy, I really want to a sleep a sleepy. I didn’t have the strength to face the anxiety and depression, I felt that my illness was getting more and more serious, but I was afraid that I had given myself too strong psychological hints after the diagnosis, but I was really tired. The happiest thing every day was to lie in bed before going to work and count a few minutes to get up.

I should go to work. Only by focusing on my work and entering the present moment can I have a moment to breathe. But I really don’t want to go.

In this half a year, I jumped to Shenzhen from a fourth-line small city, with great pressure and a lot of thoughts. It was easy to go into an endless cycle. While thinking about making a little money, I could not help my own hands.

For those of you who are here, thank you, after reading my babble, I’m not in a normal state right now, and I know that, but I’m maintaining a normal life, and I don’t want the people I love and the people who love me to be sad. I want to go, 26 years old hope is my end, but also my beginning. Thank you for watching. Thank you.

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