The author is an old programmer driver, limited to the general writing style of the author, think of which to write which __ random writing, the length is longer _, hope to review the past through the simple way of the article, summarize the present and look forward to the future, by the way to record, convenient summary later. _
start
Recently just brush “the beginning” this TV series, with a lot of feelings, men and women in a cycle, gradually improve the information, eliminate everyone’s suspicion, and finally find a way to stop the pressure cooker explosion.
Life is the same, after a failure, will eventually reach their own goals, the outcome is good or bad.
Every summary of life is actually the starting point of the next cycle.
Where did the time go
All of a sudden god himself is already 35 years old, although he does not want to admit it, but the time is so little by little.
Remember when 09 graduate first work, listening to the colleagues talking about things to buy a house, fry, raising her, felt that this thing is how far away, away from his but now it seems really is like what happened yesterday, the situation is still very clear in your mind, even when they are talking about facial expression, tone and body language are still clearly remember.
Since the age of 30, every birthday will be more feeling, always ask yourself, this year’s time to go to where it, if this year can recircle once, how they will choose.
To recall
In 2022, a year full of 2, my 14th working year. Looking back on my work experience in these 14 years, I have gained and lost, and there are too many sad.
The first five years were relatively smooth. From a soldier, I gradually grew into the leader of a group through my dedication.
The previous five years laid a new starting point for the second five years, and continue to settle my own technology and team management in a new role. In recent words, it has been “rolled up” all the way.
The third five years is bumpy, I am not satisfied, I failed to achieve my desired goal, and time has been wasted. I have regrets, mistakes in decision-making and reluctance, but I can’t accept my fate and regret, because I still need to do my best in the future.
The basement
In July 2009, as soon as I graduated, I took a train bound for Beijing with a suitcase and started my journey to the north.
When I was in college, I heard that it was very easy for programmers in Beijing to find a job and they could get a high salary of 15,000 yuan a month. At that time, the housing price in Beijing was estimated to be less than 10,000 yuan. At that time, I wanted to study hard and get 15,000 yuan as soon as possible, so I firmly chose Beijing.
Newborn calves are not afraid of tigers, took home the last time to $3000, jobs and housing are landing, also good basement of Beijing is very popular at that time, is to give a lot of want to Beijing to fight, but people can’t afford to pay high rents, inside a lot of young people like me, and must do breakfast business street vendors, So I’m very lucky to be one of them.
Looking for a job is more smoothly, it is before I came to Beijing, in a technical contact in the BBS moderator old yan, came to Beijing on the second day go to his company, in front of the old yan and GongJie (afterwards just know, GongJie old yan daughter-in-law, departure from the state-owned enterprises, the old yan for her to open a company) was written in PHP upload a form interface, was admitted to directly, As an inexperienced person, this is a great affirmation for me.
A year after the steadfast opened the basement of the company – two point one line of life, from the negative three layers on the ground in the morning, a day from darkness to light, go out crowded bus to the company, in the evening and then go back to the underground three layers, only 2 to 4 square metres of the basement, no Internet, no entertainment, occasionally go to Internet cafes and girlfriend (now wife) video at that time, this year is very full, The salary of 2000 yuan is only enough to live, and I can get hundreds more if I add a day’s work on weekends. However, I am full of energy and study oriented.
Up to now, I still miss this year’s experience, although I haven’t contacted old Yan and Sister Gong for a long time. Thank you very much for this work experience, which taught me a lot.
Develop a strong mind
Why have a strong heart? Because no matter in work, or in life, there will be all kinds of difficulties and setbacks, if it is easy to be overwhelmed, easy to say give up, then how can you go further in the career path, and how to shoulder the responsibility of their own family.
In the first year or two, WHEN I was working, I had to rely on myself to constantly search baidu and Google for many things THAT I didn’t understand. Therefore, I often dreamed about the situation that I could not write the program at night, which was very stressful. Especially when I received a relatively large project, I could not sleep at night.
However, through these years of project experience and working with more excellent people, I gradually developed a strong heart. When you need to work at the same time with the family and the double pressure, if the heart not strong enough, will find crash or depression, everyone is coming step by step, in our generation, who are very substantial, I contact is in again and again after the collapse of crushed, self-adjusting and cheer up, let my mind gradually strong.
When I recruit people for my team, I give priority to the candidates’ sincerity and optimism.
The antonyms of “pishe” is “glass heart”, which means that everyone makes mistakes and is confused. A pishe can listen to the advice of others, dissolve the pressure into power, and gradually assume more responsibilities.
An optimistic person can not only drive the atmosphere in the group, but also be a positive person who will not easily deny himself. After proper training and guidance, he will soon become an independent role.
Personal growth
I was most energetic and able to work hard in Youku and ali Entertainment for nearly 7 years. During this period, buying a house, getting married and giving birth to a baby can be said to have done all the most important things. During this period, FROM a soldier, he steadily completed every task arranged by the leader and demanded himself as the owner. Later, he was promoted to a technical leader, which happened to experience the most glorious years of the Internet.
I like the cultural atmosphere of Youku very much. Cooperation is the first thing. I miss working with my colleagues at that time.
In the past 7 years, I have learned many ways and methods to do things, met the right leaders, and got to know many excellent colleagues. To sum up, a strong heart, sincere, steady, solid accumulation.
entrepreneurship
The idea of starting a business came in the second half of the second five years, when the career entered the comfort zone, which can also be said to be the bottleneck period. Once you feel comfortable, you will fall behind. Therefore, after struggling for a long period of time, I gave up the opportunity to stay in Ali with stocks to repair the fortune newspaper, resigned naked to look for entrepreneurial opportunities (this decision is actually a little hot, in the choice of words, it is estimated that I will ride a donkey to find a horse), at the same time, I also want to take care of the child’s growth stage.
What I mean by entrepreneurship is not the kind of entrepreneurship that we imagine when we are the boss. What I expect is that I can follow an early business and experience the process of becoming bigger and stronger step by step, that is, the 0-1 process, so as to be more practical.
So later business experienced a short video, chain blocks, these home business, the process of project from 0 to 1 is my biggest harvest, commitment and compressive ability, this is the necessary entrepreneurial, as long as you can look at the database user data from day to day growing exponentially, and to verify the value of the project, this is the power for entrepreneurship can hold on, though most want “money” not in place.
Entrepreneurship can have risks, cycle is long, full of uncertainty, will be affected by policy and capital, has successfully has failed, when it emerged from ali, already ready mentally prepared, that’s why the multiple projects, 1-10 of this stage is not hard to achieve, right place, right time and the little one is not.
In the future, the world is always changing, and no one expected that the novel coronavirus would silently spread in 2019, which is a great variable in everyone’s life plan. Under the epidemic, everything becomes less important, living is the most important, family health is the most important. So the plan of entrepreneurship can not continue, or choose to return to dachang to continue “volume”, after all, there are family responsibilities need to be carried up, I hope that the day of human victory over the epidemic will come as soon as possible.
technology
Technology is a tool for programmers to eat, can also be said to be instinct, at any time should maintain this instinct, so constantly update their technical reserves, is a required course as a programmer.
The sense of crisis
Never too old to learn, this should not only programmers this job needs to do, any position should be the same (except for institutions and units), in such a fierce competition environment, not to advance is to fall back, the sense of crisis is everyone should always maintain the state, unless you can really lie down.
First-line programming is an ability that needs to be maintained all the time. No matter how busy you are, you still need to spare time to practice and consolidate. Architecture ability is important, but so is landing ability.
I hope THAT when I am 50 or 60 years old, I can still keep my technical ability. I don’t know what the world will be like in the future, but I can keep my heart.
Learn to do the right thing
Work to a certain stage, as long as technology can handle things, it is the simplest work. If you want to do a good job in technology, before the real implementation, you should first see the essence of things through the phenomenon, plan and then move, thick and thin. I learned this from previous leaders, so “work with great people and you’ll be great” **.
Develop a way of doing things, make an outline, think it through, write it down, write everything down, and get it in your head.
The following is the outline of the process I am used to. If I can perfect each point, I think I can handle it freely in my work:
Event analysis, background investigation, relationship, pain points, orientation establishment, short -, medium - and long-term goals, detailed plan timeline, process tracking, phase review, and direction adjustmentCopy the codeKeep technology updates in perspective
I do front-end work now, but I don’t just define myself as a front-end engineer. I don’t want to pigeonhole myself into a set framework. In the same way, in the first few years, WHEN I was asked to lead the H5 team, I didn’t think it was a bad choice. On the contrary, my experience in the back-end enabled me to continue to deepen my efforts in the front-end field and become more calm and calm.
Times are changing, people are changing, technology is also changing, technology is always updated and iterated, as a research and development, need to have an enterprising heart, strive to keep up with the trend of The Times, rather than be beaten dead on the beach after the waves.
Take the front-end as an example. The first framework I came into contact with was Yahoo’s Yui, and then jQuery, and then NodeJS, which led to the explosive growth and change of front-end technology, resulting in the emergence of Angular, React, Vue and other frameworks.
In recent years, there have been many new nouns and frameworks in the front-end field, such as cross-end, Severless, Lowcode, D2C, P2C, ESbuild, Flutter, etc. The core behind these nouns is actually about how to improve r&d efficiency, maximize R&D efficiency, and optimize operation performance. Therefore, no matter how technology changes, the essence of things does not change, but we constantly find better solutions through continuous research and exploration, so as to replace the previous architecture to achieve the goal better and faster.
Straighten the attitude, the correct treatment of the update and iteration of technology, but also to continue to their own infrastructure, through the two arteries, so that no matter what martial arts can be integrated through.
A technical expert in a particular field
The word “technical expert” is my personal understanding: in a certain technical field, one not only has influence in the industry, but also has great technical depth. He or she can use the skills he or she has mastered to solve all kinds of difficult problems in work perfectly and lead the team to progress together.
I have to admit that I did not reach my expectations. Although I hold the title of technical expert, the technical depth is far from enough, and the industry does not have any influence. I am ashamed that there is a long way to go in the future.
Over the years, I have come into contact with a lot of technical languages, such as PHP, Python, Java, Javascript and Go. However, it seems that every one of them is just to solve the current business pain points, learn them temporarily and apply them to the actual business. After that, THERE is no further study. In addition to the front end, I have been paying continuous attention and investment because I am really interested in it. Therefore, I will continue to go in this direction in the future, and go deeper in combination with the actual business to achieve my inner expectation.
anxiety
Talk about “anxiety,” or “midlife crisis,” the kind of anxiety that comes with reading a recent book called cognitive Awareness: The Driving Force that Opens Up Self-Change. The author was 36 when he wrote this:
For a long time, I was like a person who did not wake up, do not understand themselves, have no idea of life, have no choice to fate. Although I was devoted to my day job, my spare time was mostly occupied by mindless things: partying with friends and getting drunk; Often stay up late, never take the initiative to read, exercise; The time is spent watching funny videos, reading gossip and playing mobile games. Really nothing to do, wrapped up the quilt to sleep…… Subconsciously, I thought this carefree life would go on.
The reason why people are anxious is that everyone has their own expectations. When they worry that this expectation can not be achieved, or can not be achieved in a short time, people will have a kind of anxiety.
As a 35-year-old coder, it’s natural to associate myself with a “midlife crisis.”
Because they worry that they don’t have enough energy to handle high-intensity work.
Because of the fear that their thinking is no longer flexible, can not do the overall thinking.
Unable to balance family and work because of worries about their own family.
Because they fear that their expectations are too high, can not get a good room for advancement.
Fear of losing their jobs and being unable to take on family responsibilities.
I am very afraid of getting to a certain age and suddenly realizing that THERE is nothing I can do about the world: there is a huge gap between my dream and reality, my life and work are full of pressure, and my excellent peers have left behind. For a moment, anxious and impatient, and suddenly awake:
“Why didn’t I know the truth about the world earlier?”
“Why didn’t you wake up at the best age?”
But even the tearful interrogation seemed to miss the best opportunity, after all, life is a one-way street, you can’t start again.
Finally have to break that proud heart, in helplessness and sigh quietly accept mediocre life.
What I want to do next is to try to find a balance and learn to live with anxiety, which comes with desire, such as reading books, writing articles, using my spare time to enrich myself, and when I am strong enough, maybe I can enter another state of mind.
Work and Family
The new job
He is on the new post for a full year, this year in the field of map learned many new knowledge, with good people together, is very lucky to advance together and render Daniel, map data visualization engine, around the webgl, spatio-temporal data be born to three dimensions of geography, from research, the research and development, to be born, This process requires the absorption of many new terms, such as Mercator, tile, Geojson, etc., and the actual implementation of the code.
A year’s work is very fast, in the adaptation and hesitation, so the past, even before thinking about the summary, the actual output is still a big gap from their expectations, with policies, and business, and investment, but also did get a lot of new accumulation in technology.
She go to school
This year happened to catch up with the big baby in primary school, the little baby in a small class, so maybe more time is indeed devoted to the family, the most painful thing is, do not know how to educate children. Children in this era and when we were young, thinking and vision have been greatly improved, so they will imperceptibly impose their unfinished expectations on their children, which brings more anxiety.
I would like to thank my daughter-in-law for taking care of my children all the time. Otherwise, it is really difficult to balance work and family. However, in terms of education and health, my daughter-in-law and I still need to pay more attention to our own health, the health of our children and the health of the elderly.
self-knowledge
It’s no consolation that if you feel like you’re past your prime, that’s ok, because “now” is always the best time to start. “Grandma Moses” began to learn painting at the age of 76, and held individual exhibitions at the age of 80. Wang Deshun walked the catwalk at 79, and Chu Shijian started his business growing oranges at 74. Even if you are 60 years old, they can still tell you, “Don’t worry, son, you have at least 20 years to start again anytime…”
Such as opening a larger version, on a piece of golden wheat fields, a little girl walk holding balloons inside, the golden grain is a former 35 years of accumulation, green balloons represent full of hope for the future, I think of yourself as a little girl in this picture, hope I can study in a whole new world to, to know yourself, find a new way to the future.
communication
Before I became a leader, I was still a typical programmer. I only wanted to deal with code, so I would not take the initiative to make friends with others and completely immersed in my own world.
After becoming a leader, I moved from introversion to extroversion, forcing myself to take the initiative to communicate with others. For the sake of the team and myself, I made efforts to create common topics and never rejected participating in any social activities.
Independent thinking
This is not done enough, a lot of times will be considerate of other people’s feelings, so it is better to ask why, more think about whether there is a better answer.
Emotion management
I am gentle and sincere to others. I have never lost my temper due to work except for several times when I was wronged for other students in the team and blushed with other team leaders.
Patience,
This need deep reflection and review, in the education of children on this matter, has no patience, often is because children things inexplicable irritability, especially when the stress of work, will speak ten thousand times “biological”, in the heart to suppress the anger of the heart slowly, sometimes it also could not help but beat her.
The aura
I don’t have much aura. Whether I am a leader or a soldier, MY consistent style is that harmony makes money, so I won’t show too much aura to suppress others.
Future self
I hope THAT I can be more independent, take on more work and more family responsibilities, make reasonable use of my spare time, and spend my time in valuable places. Find a way to de-stress, not lose your temper, take life seriously and make more connections.
Next year’s Flag
Don’t have too many goals. These goals are done in your spare time.
Reading a book
Aim for at least 10 books a year, one book a month, and apply what you’ve learned instead of forgetting it.
Write an article
Write an original article a week in any category
Early to bed and early to rise
Rest no later than 11:30 every day
conclusion
In total, more than 6,000 words are written to my 35-year-old self in the form of prose. I simply review the past, summarize the present and look forward to the future. I hope that when my 36-year-old self looks back, I will despise my present self and write a better “To my 36-year-old self”.