This article was written on July 15, 2020 and published on the gold digging platform today. It is my sincere encouragement to all of you who strive for your ideals and future alone.

I have been in Hangzhou for more than two months since the end of May. I feel good in general, but since I came here, I have seen everyone around me is so excellent (not bragging about X or giving out good card), it is really excellent. The topics of discussion are either business requirements or “your code doesn’t work this way, it will XXXX when parsing data”. Before coming to Hangzhou, I also made a plan “to the company must be in a good relationship with everyone, a lot of communication”. But I found here food dare not speak.

I did not exaggerate the way, I surrounded by the senior just came to the company last year, there are also many years of work veteran, of course, there are sitting behind me every day to discuss business side elder brother and General Huang (both are big bosses, you should also know that to this extent, the basic do not touch the code).

In order to go more easily and farther on the road of development, I can only keep my head down and work hard (if I don’t learn it now, I will be stuck there when I use it in the future, and I can’t complete the distribution of requirements, that is embarrassing, now I have time to make it up, and I will be easier in the future, after all, I have more skills than pressure). Morning before going to work early half an hour to read some blogs and their own notes, from 9 o ‘clock to 12 o ‘clock is to see the project code, write interface and debugging front end, nothing to say, is a code – > go to the bathroom – > get up move – > drink water – > code – > go to the bathroom – > get up move – > drink water process.

Afternoon is still the same, from two to six o ‘clock to knock code – > go to the bathroom – > get up and move – > drink water – > knock code – > go to the bathroom – > get up and move – > drink water, sleepy can not stand while the bosses discuss the need to discuss the hot time close your eyes for a while, from the back of the chair, still think I stare at the screen to understand the code.

Because of my internship, sometimes I can read blogs, brush articles and knowledge points without developing requirements during the day, but it is not good to blatantly watch videos and tap my own things, so I always study at night. After work at 6 o ‘clock for dinner + one hour rest, from 7 o ‘clock to 10:30 in the company to study. Read books, watch videos, write notes, debug code. Day after day….

Because it is a new arrival, I don’t know many people, I seldom talk a day, no more than 20 exaggerations (discussion with the master does not count). Therefore, the most uncomfortable thing is not the boring and difficult to persist in daily study, but the loneliness, the endless loneliness, the loneliness from the inner environment, that kind of feeling is not experienced at home and school.

After work looking at colleagues in groups talking and laughing, a moment I also admire… But every day from getting up to go out to lunch and dinner, and then back to more than ten o ‘clock are a person, cycle. Sometimes when I feel really lonely I just talk to my son (a great brother, as we call each other) and it helps.

Grow up to go out after all started with his, may after entering job everybody will have such a process, every day is his own world, but still want to insist, who, after all, life is not easy, everyone is not easy, they are busy doing their own life, who will have time to listen to your sorrow.

If possible, think of loneliness as your friend, as your best friend, because it could be with you for a long time to come! And I’m sure most of us will go through this process at some point in the future.

Make friends with solitude, if possible!