Author: Anonymous
Lao Liu, Xiao CAI, Manager Gao, Peng Ge, Zhou Ge, Xiao Kai, Xiao Wang, Qiang Ge and Xia Zong in the article are all fictional names.
Jingwon city, Hoping City, Xinyang City and Gaosun city are fictional place names.
Read this title, you may think this boring text is talking about life after 30+ programmers, prestigious education, big factory background, leading a team of more than 100 people, after realizing the value of life and financial freedom? But I want to say no to you, because I am different from you. When you graduated at the age of 20 or so and moved to a big factory, I was still confused about my future. At the age of 30, I just entered the field of code farming. This is me, a programmer who learned to develop at age 30, a programmer who sank at the end of his career.
How to say this unforgettable life experience? I guess it starts with my undergraduate degree. My undergraduate major is not good, graduation happens to catch up with the 2008 financial crisis, graduation on the unemployment, I do every day is nest at home to play games, every day world of Warcraft gold coins for point cards to sell money, this dozen is a year. Then I realized I couldn’t go on like this, so I got a part-time job. But the odd job was not smooth either. I swept the road, worked as a driver, delivered goods, worked as a mediator, and spent most of my time in administrative chores. I also had the honor to take part in the sixth census. At that time, I climbed up 51 floors at most in one night and investigated the population situation one by one. What I encountered was both ice and fire, and those who were understanding and supportive would be very warm to you. At that time, I suddenly set my heart on taking the public entrance examination. However, when I was struggling with my academic background, I finally had to sign up for the examination with no limitation of major. This kind of examination often attracts thousands of people to grab a place and usually cannot get into the interview. Later bite teeth began to take an examination of the province, the most crazy time a year to take an examination of four provinces of the civil servant exam. I have been to the three northeastern provinces, Hebei, Sichuan, into the interview but last to accompany run. At that time disheartened: public examination, has not been on; You don’t have enough education or experience to get into a big company. At that time, I thought it was a problem of educational background. It would be better if I had a master’s degree, so that there would be less competition in the public examination. At the same time, I would be very competitive if I entered the company to do administrative work. Later, I took the exam twice in a row and finally got in. In 2010, I took the exam for the first time, which was the most difficult English test in the past 10 years. Even with a total score of 360, I was stuck, which reminded me of the experience of the college entrance examination rematch twice. Ok, I will fight again in 2012. I went back to my Alma mater and graduated just 30 years later, and suddenly I found that no one wanted to be older.
I graduated and lost my job again, but I’m in a much better state of mind. But the pressure is actually greater, because unlike what I thought, degree is no longer a stepping stone. When I was idle at home, I thought of what Little Old Liu said when we had dinner together a few days ago. He said that if I didn’t have any dreams, I would write code with him. Writing code won’t make me rich, but at least I won’t starve myself. So I began to study Java by myself at home. I remember very clearly that it was the 2005 version of the Basic Java course taught by Ma Junjun when he was still in school. The version of more than 10 years ago seemed like a mystery to me, a zero-based person. Insist on 6-8 hours of learning every day, so 4, 5 months have passed, learned Java, JS, but the framework is not, send a resume there is no job opportunity, can not enter the line. Come to think of it, why would a company want an internship with a 30-year-old who can’t do anything? I laughed at my own innocence, approaching the New Year, nothing to do, and went back to play the game to muddle through.
The turning point came after the Spring Festival when my high school classmate Xiao CAI came back from the capital city. We had dinner together and talked about the recent situation. He was still on a business trip in China, but his life was pretty good now. When it comes to me, ALL I can do is shake my head and sigh and say that I spent years in school, then months in programming, and years in taking the gcse. I drank too much that night, blacked out, and I don’t remember anything I said after that. A few weeks later, Chua called me and asked me if I still wanted to do development. He also got his friend to talk to me, thinking that my down-to-earth nature was suitable for a job that required little human interaction. Then he told me that he had contracted an outsourcing project to a friend’s company in Jingyuan city. He asked me to follow him and learn from the project, and also help him keep an eye on the progress. I knew that he was taking care of my face by offering me a chance. I was so moved that I said yes without thinking, so I packed my bags and left for Jingyuan city a week later.
Huping, where I live, is a second-tier city, and Jingyuan is a third-tier city, which is about 150 kilometers away. When I arrived in Jingyuan city, I met Manager Gao, who told me that I might not be suitable for the job because I was too old to be dismissed. After I thought about it, I said to Manager Gao, since I have come, I still want to try to go. Manager Gao was silent for a while and said ok, and then we talked about salary. The salary at that time was 2,000 yuan/month. Ah, not as high as I do administration, but barely enough to rent a house. After the negotiation, Manager Gao gave me to my first teacher Peng Ge, so far I can be regarded as a formal pit programmer. Peng Ge, my master, treats me very well, and I am very honored to have such a master. Although he is very busy (he just had his second child at that time, both at home and at work), he still teaches me some things. I learned to draw simple graphics with canvas and do some simple CRUD. Although I am a foreigner, the level of food, the age is a little older than most of my colleagues, but with colleagues or very good relationship. Everyone is honest and kind people, but also let me gradually into the collective, so happy days passed quickly. Later, because I wanted to get married, SO I had to resign and return to Huping city. But, after all, working for so long time relationship with your colleagues is very good, very loathe to give up, before he left XiaoCai comes, just eat a meal together, at that time I just know originally peng elder brother is an undergraduate course school with me, and we are still the same level, everyone feeling each other once the fate is such a wonderful thing, and then I tidy up the bags, Tears left everyone back to Huping City.
I went back to Huping city to rest for some time, and then BEGAN to send out resumes. I was confused again, because older programmers from small cities are not appreciated. At this time old Liu came to me to play, learned this situation, he worked as a programmer for ten years, the circle of good relations, then began to find his friends to help me push. So I found Brother Zhou, the company’s development team leader, a few years younger than me, but very friendly, the three of us had a meal together, Brother Zhou said to go to his place, he has been on a new project, can learn a lot. So it wasn’t long before I went to work at the company where Brother Zhou was working. To tell the truth, I was so confused that I could only do simple CRUD, and JS was terrible, and the template engine was useless. But then companies started using distributed. Dubbo, ZooKeeper, Docker, workflow were introduced at that time. Xiao Kai, a member of the same project team beside me, is the best in technology and is responsible for the framework of the whole project. He is 12 years younger than me and is 10 blocks ahead of me in technology. Others are also around 1995. But there is no way, while working overtime while learning. I was really energized. I didn’t sleep before 12 o ‘clock at night, and I was up around 5 a.m. writing code, but the stress of my mid-30’s crisis was still overwhelming me. When I can’t sleep, I wonder if I’m really cut out for this, what have I been doing all these years? Is coding right for you? Is it going to take another couple of years? Each time I deny myself, I feel a surge of unwillingness after each denial, and then I force myself to hold on a little longer. The construction period of the project was under great pressure, and it was usually connected for 48 hours before it went online. At that time, a single bed would stay in the company, so I worked for two or three projects in a row. The company encountered difficulties and needed to lay off 80% of its staff. With the accumulated wages to go out to travel, after coming back to the old liu’s company.
Actually says nothing about the company, should be developed by a small group, liu contracted for the development of a company business with friends, we mainly do the work of development and maintenance, comparison at leisure do not need to be in office the sort of, sleep to nature to wake up every day and began to work, the entire speech communication, finished work to play games, row a king glory. After all, I still have the strength of the king at that time, probably can hit the king more than 30 stars, take the trumpet with his diamond is still easy. During this period of time, I learned workflow and began to write workflow slowly, and understood part of the operation and maintenance work: how to remote deployment, project packaging and release, class file replacement and so on. After doing this for more than half a year, the outsourcing company had financial problems and the small team was facing dissolution. I had to start looking for a job again. It was really difficult this year… Both of them were downsized due to the problem of capital chain, but my ability was trained and my skills began to move from the primary to the intermediate level, which enabled me to be competent for my own work.
After that, I applied for a job with an out-of-town company based locally. Xiao Wang, who came in at the same time as me, did development together with me. Xiao Wang is 6 years younger than me. Being young does not mean that he has not rich social experience. After a year of development together, Xiao Wang gave me a solid lesson. When I first met Xiao Wang, he wore glasses and was shy, much like his former colleagues, but with average skills, some simple questions would puzzle him for a long time. Watching him scratch his head, I saw my old self. It’s painful to have problems you can’t solve and work you can’t get done. I stayed with him to work overtime to solve problems, hand in hand to teach him to help him, so that three months, he can take charge of one side, people also become confident. He smiled at me and said, it’s good to have you, you’re like a master. Once, WHEN I was developing a mobile app page, I needed to coordinate with Android to do mixed development. As a result, my immediate leader, Brother John, shouted at me for a long time on the phone, basically saying that I was a pit and I had to blame others for my failure in making app. I ignored him. Figuring out how to find an Android to do hybrid development is a waste of time? After I found the r & D director Of the Summer across the strong brother.
Xia and Johnny are all in xinyang city, the local huping city only wang and I
I explained the situation to Xia, I want an Android to do mixed development, because there is a function by 5 + JS is not to write, Xia has been very good to me, he knows that my ability to work at this time is ok, I am in, he can not worry about the living in Hu Ping city. After that, I arranged someone to contact with me, and soon the project was developed. I met and had dinner with my direct leader Brother John once before. He likes to brag, boast, and be flattered by others. If there is a merit, it is his good leadership, but if there is a problem, it is the incompetence of employees. His right-hand man are the sort of words not only people, though I don’t like him this kind of style, but at least I don’t have any bad before him, my life is also more cautious, nice to see people are warm greeting, personality so wonder why he would suddenly this attitude to me, and what happened after the obvious in give me a hard time. Xiao Wang told me, “The company is like this. The employees and leaders of the company are not good. The salary is low and they don’t pay attention to us. In short, Xiao Wang ridiculed the company all kinds of things, which happened almost every day. He ridiculed it every day, and then said to me, Brother, let’s jump ship, there is no future with such a leader. I was hoping for a raise, but after I applied, Johnny didn’t even call me back. Two months later, one day, Xiao Wang told me that his salary had been raised and the company had given him compensation for several months. He was so happy that I was really discouraged and wanted to quit. It turned out that I was the one who did the most work, the one who did the most work, the one who did the most work, the one who did the most work, the one who did the most work, the one who did the most work, the one who did the most work. I then with the people to raise the resignation, the people to retain me, let me have a good chat with the summer, I say good. I remember very clearly, around eight o ‘clock in the evening, I made a phone call with Mr. Xia, mainly to say that I leave the handover problem, Mr. Xia told me that he did not want me to go, he wanted me to stay in charge of the work of the province, the next step he wanted to set up a branch in Huping City, in need of a general responsible for technology, he wanted me to do it, Then, the northeast project will be developed by the newly established branch, and more people will be recruited and I will lead the team. As for salary adjustment, he said that he would ask his staff to make a plan for me after two days, so that I can think about it more. In fact, speaking of here, summer always really very righteousness, I feel very ashamed, the leadership respect me, when it comes to this, is not money not money, I immediately give summer always position, let him rest assured, I will work well, will put the branch development work well, and then hang up the phone happily. As a result, the drama happened, two days later, the human resources to find me, told me to determine the specific departure date with me, I was stupid, the brain a meng, want to ask the summer total how to return to, and then think about no meaning, put down the phone, began to pack up the mood to prepare material handover. Xiao Wang then fanned the fire, said to me that the company is so no friendship, xia always said to you good things can be changed, this kind of leadership and management can not be trusted, brother, you go is right, where is better than here. I smiled. I smiled reluctantly. The last day was October 22, 2019. I will always remember that day. After I signed and packed up my things, Xiao Wang said he would send me downstairs. After more than a month, Xiao Wang told me that he also quit his job on October 23, the day after I left, and he was very unhappy with the company. Xiao Wang also said to me, “Brother, you see, I am loyal and righteous. No, if you leave my job, I will not stay, and I will also leave my job. This is the kind of company we can’t stay here, not care if we live or die. We talked about our parents for a while. I was at home with no place to go. After some time, I had an opportunity to talk with a former colleague in Gaoshun City. He said that what was wrong with huping City? It was abnormal for two people to go away in one month. A word point woke me up, I thought to this matter is really very abnormal, and then find someone to talk about the situation, just suddenly realized, so many things happened inside this.
Here’s a recap of the conspiracy I encountered, combining feedback from multiple sources to basically get to the truth. First, wang at the time of entry level is general, so he’s not attaches great importance to human resources, we in together, I two months before he become a full member, his positive ahead of the application is rejected, this led to his discontent to the company and then I taught him a lot of things, let him have the confidence to go out and find a better job, he wants to leave, but not voluntarily, You want to get back at the company. The core of the plan is directly under the strong leadership, strong said the elder brother is in front of the excesses, for we usually ignore, wang used this, strong elder brother don’t understand our work, because at ordinary times we are direct and local pre-sale docking, wang boasted that live with him all he did, I basic don’t work, every day light know play, As time passed, Johnny became dissatisfied with me, which also explains why he often gave me small shoes, and Then Xiao Wang took the opportunity to stir up trouble in my ear, saying that the company was not good. The second thing to do is get a raise, have PY trading between wang and strong elder brother, under normal circumstances a wage increase is to be executed by the human resources, but look from hr feedback, hr voted against wang pay rises, then strong elder brother across the human resources, directly find financial requirements to wang a wage increase, and filling the gap between a few months ago, After xiao Wang got his salary, he tried to make me sick again. It means he didn’t give me a raise even though I did so much work. After my departure, summer always retain me, it is know human resources, but in the next two days, and strong elder brother to directly under the leadership of identity talk to summer total, roughly saying is wang can work, and did a good job, and then hire someone my position on the top of the line, can’t open this exit hole up money. Because Brother Johnson is directly under the leadership, Summer even if the research and development boss also have to consider his opinion, so this is after the hr confirmed with me the time to leave the thing happened. When I know after these things there from the human resources, also gradually understood why I left after 22 wang in 23 departure, because he is to confirm that I really left before departure, he was afraid of the premise, if I had gone in the summer of human resources and will always keep me again, he want to be sure, I do go out, and then he go, Blow up the Hoping development, and his revenge is done. I feel uncomfortable when I recall xiao Wang coming back after leaving his post and pretending to be close to me, and what he said to me. Wang was a boy, all the strong elder brother is the piece in his hand, and I was his global control rinse heavyly, that let me know the heart of the sinister, but the worst is I actually, I take to help him, but he turn back the first calculation is put me into the poisoned, I want to be in the face of his obsession, directly under the leadership of repression, do most of the work, Solved the most problems, and lived like this for a year, really, I think this life is not sustainable. After this happened, Brother Johnson was transferred from the management post, was always sent to the summer field to do development, the follow-up events continue to ferment, the company knows this thing including the boss, heard that in order to strengthen management of the meeting.
It took me a long time to get over all this machinations. My former colleagues were very kind. It was the first time I had seen such a sneaky person. I hope there will be no such person in my life.
From this matter I learned a lot, maybe your heart is a kind person, but there is always someone who would not want to treat you so kind, so, I began to learn to protect themselves, polish themselves, began to learn whether others have evil heart to themselves, really tired. Such a life is really not as comfortable as writing code, because when dealing with people, sometimes no matter whether I am right or not, it will be my fault in the end, but when dealing with code, it will be much easier. If there is a bug or an error, it must be my fault. I just need to constantly review myself. You see, isn’t that a lot easier? So, write good code, he really is a good partner in life.
In the past year, my life has been much better. The leader and boss of the new company think highly of me. I live in a second-tier city, and the work pressure is not so great. I told my leader that I wanted to learn big data, so I didn’t arrange much work for about half a year. I have time to read hadoop, Kafka, Spark, Flink and so on. Next, IF I have time, I plan to learn machine learning and deep learning, and then GO, blockchain and audio and video related. Don’t take advantage of now learn some more, a few years be eliminated how to do.
XiaoCai back a year of much time, but every time they come back to call me, said that when he high flat iron to lake city, free dinner, as long as I’m free will to meet him at the high-speed basic, I drove him and chat with some family issues, unlike high school, he also like to take his fist hard Dui I chubby face, Then a face of abandon said now face more meat, but not elastic, then giggle along while also ha ha, I rubbed a reddish face a face of innocence, eyes glowing excited tears, then side said tired want to go to a massage, I said my house downstairs and have a good, this time he has narrowed his small eyes, secretive to ask me: formal or informal? “, I temporarily speechless, and then nervous sweating, and then he laughed more severe, and then loudly said: you are still that old ah! This feeling is just like 20 years ago when we first met. Thank you, brother, for persuading me again and again to get into this line of work that year, so that I can have today’s happiness and happiness.
Old Liu knew me at the age of 5, and in a city, so will meet from time to time, of course, before meeting, not to me a sneer and sneer plus rip-off, such as: how did you start busy again? Money is tight these days I want to eat skewers ah, you don’t invite me? The king! Brother, line up, quick take me row a few, I can’t, five even kneel, do you take me? Are you brothers? In fact, I want to say, I do not play the king, now this level of severe regression, want to star yao is not easy, really become an eternal diamond! But have a meal still can have, this bog still two days with him to eat the sea bottom fish, reason, because this elder brother say to me he had not eaten the sea bottom fish, then this meal so settle down, two people spent more than three hundred, I pay him actually the flesh ache along while, ha ha, laughed along while, this money say really not what! Still want to thank brother you in my confused time said that sentence: write code, really can starve no one! I have the power to survive now, so drink and eat meat, brother!
I from the line has been on the brink of elimination, was the faith for the survival and the help of friends to make me go today, liu once said that if I undergraduate course graduate work with him at that time, I wanted to think, if that is the case, may I now it is no longer in this business, I also have no learning motivation, Because I have not experienced that displaced life, I may not cherish the hard-won job opportunities today, nor will I study hard to improve myself because of the low level of that year, so it is inevitable to be eliminated and change industries. Maybe tomorrow, I will be replaced, but I am not old, I don’t want to throw in the towel, I still want to see more technology, learn more fun things. And that’s worth fighting for. In my eyes, interview, study and work are no longer about making a living or money, but the continuation of the most simple and pure campus life. After I understand this, I started the progress, just like a dark day seem bright, interview talk about pay, is no longer a question of money, but a simple school exams, you study for a long time know, must want to test a good result, and the good grades is hard for you or not, the end of the money is just a number, as a baseline of comprehensive examination results, hanging on the wall, Write it down on bright red paper and make a list of the rankings. Don’t compare yourself with others every time, as long as you are better than yourself in every test. When you get back to the feeling of campus, learning is really like breathing, you will want to learn, because compared to all the difficulties you face now, it is the easiest thing in the world to remember the learning. You need to build yourself like a sword, around friends, help them, at the same time let them polish themselves, and you, as long as adhere to the purest heart, sword heart clear, waiting for the arrival of that day, and then bright sword! Jianqi vertical and horizontal thirty thousand miles, a sword pass cold nineteen states!
If you have patience to see this, I would also like to thank you, my friend, for recalling this unforgettable experience with me. Meanwhile, I would also like to thank CXuan for giving me such an opportunity to share my experience with you. I hope my experience can bring help to you and encourage us all!
Written at home at 4am on 25 October 2020
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