preface
‘ve always wanted to write a about his experiences, but there has been no good ideas and also very busy, very not easy finally have a weekend, think and write, small farmers in Shanghai is a busy work, think about yourself doing this line (programmers) has also a lot of time, had never thought I would do the software, Also never thought about what to do or grow up to do, when I was a child, the most happy thing is to play naturally, when I was a child’s academic performance is not too good, in addition to the third day of the time seems to wake up, try a little, but it is too late to mend.
Near the junior middle school graduation before there will be a lot of that kind of high school or technical school teacher to propaganda, at that time my parents didn’t also how to get to us, see our own desire, see oneself how to choose, then I choose to continue to high school, I had also don’t know how to think, is going to choose high school, may culminate in their own destiny, When I first came to high school, I didn’t study hard and just muddled along day by day. Before that high school, there was a relatively famous place that art major was very strong, but gradually good teachers were poached, so naturally it was not as strong as before.
Like every school has a great class, called the experimental classes, there are mid-term exam achievement is very high, in which students, will be asked to select an art, art and music, because in our school, culture teaching is not particularly good, most master to learn art, vocal music, after all, is the need to talents and higher difficulty, So every night lessons before they see the experimental class students practice sketch downstairs, sometimes we will look at upstairs, will envy, think this thing is quite amazing, as if to see other people’s children have fun toys, went to the art may just want to learn from this time, everyone will have a sensible or awakening, Maybe this time just planted a seed in my heart, everyone wants to have better things, only oneself effort to get a sense of accomplishment, unearned thing is nothing, it was don’t know these things, just admire thought if only I could learn art, or is about to divide into classes after high school less than half a year, Alone in our high school culture grade is not a very good school, generally divided into two, will have art class and culture club culture club is about at the time, I also want to be able to get a better knowledge, so after some ideological struggle, decided to choose this road, and from now on and the fine arts “down deep, like the TV play inside of that kind of, Nothing is smooth sailing. The road got off to a rocky start.
I drew my own apple. Shame on you, guys
(high school) a bumpy road to learning
Before choosing art this road, that is, when there is no class, my father said: “you don’t learn art”!
In the minds of the older generation think this thing is useless, the tuition is expensive (mainly to paper, pen, tools, books, and paint, studied art should know), there is no need to learn, hard to learn how to learn, but we the most out of the school is not culture, but art, so if you want to test a good university, learn art is a right choice, I didn’t listen to him, it is the first time in my life to make a decision, for the grade, this is a very brave decision, representing the began to have their own ideas, not only listen to the opinions of the parents, I chose art, behind my dad heard, and my mother to the school, was very afraid, don’t also began to set sail was to be killed? You make your own decision once and that’s it? The heart is also very uneasy.
My mother and I said: “your father won’t let you learn, but you still choose yourself, your father was going to give you change today” thought over, fate, so unfair ah! “But, I and your dad said, the child wants to learn how to let him learn, we today is to understand the situation, if you want to learn to learn” to be honest, at that time was really touched, from small to large, as if no one can understand my door for the first time to be understanding and support that kind of feeling really good, as if someone said to you, run forward, behind us!
Sometimes I think that the story in high school could be written into a book, but the ending is not so good. It would be a pity if it were used as a TV drama. I admit that I think a little too much, hahaha ~
At the beginning of the art class, I didn’t have any special feeling. I was still that ignorant teenager, still muddling along. I just wanted to touch art early
Sketch, sketch, color
- Sketch: ask you to draw a picture in 15 minutes or 30 minutes, usually people
- Sketch: Sketch is not so strict with time, sketch is to use the relationship between light and shade (black, white and grey) to draw a layered work, can be figures, faces, still life and so on
- Color: The use of pigments to paint still life objects, showing the sense of layers and characteristics of objects
The most important thing to learn is “bone”. For example, the outline of sketching clothes actually follows the skeleton and shape of the human body. Clothes are just shapes.
awakening
Just started to learn, draw a line of practice is very boring, and then copy character sketch, a day after night lessons to a simulated a homework to the teacher, sometimes I’ll call by the teacher in the past, say you to how how, where there is a problem how how, the in the mind think I really very talented, can be the teacher for advice, it didn’t take long to know, Because MY painting is too bad, so the teacher to point out my mistake, good painting, is not need the teacher said, I am arrogant…
So day after day, will also go to learn, but not hard work, every month will have a month of fine arts at the time, is the simulation test, the good students, can be shown on the board, when I was still belong to the middle and lower levels, looking at those works were presented, thought why can’t I, I did not want to learn this? Is that the grade you gave yourself? This is lame!
So I said to one of my good friends, “One day I want to be on the list,” although I don’t know where the courage came from. He said, “Just you?” Sure enough, even my friends didn’t believe me. I’m so sorry that I decided to learn this. So I very seriously said to him: “as long as the heart painting, there will be an effect!”
People’s change may be a moment, perhaps it is accumulated over a long period of time, in short, behind the same as the awakening, tell yourself: + hard hard, in most people’s hard degree is low, don not spell talent, so noon meal washes the clothes, the classmates to lunch break, I’m practicing drawing, under the night lessons, you rest, I in practice painting, back to the dormitory all have already put out the lamp when the dormitory, practise every day sketch will rotate different people go to when model, since then, I have never been a model, in order to have more time to draw, I will go to school to draw on weekends, at that time every day is thinking about how to learn, how to learn well, and beat the chicken blood, even at home will feel boring, this is me??
Bottlenecks and breakthroughs
When I get up early every day, I will see the sun rising in the morning and the signal tower. At that time, I feel full of faith and say “Come on” to myself every day. Sometimes I don’t know that time is how to get through it, but everything comes to him who waits, drawing more and more good, when the first see your picture on the list, was very excited, his efforts were not in vain, cultural achievement also slowly in ascension, as if all the efforts have paid off, when the draw is not good will themselves to find problems, to read a book, Slowly, their own works are also more and more listed, then thinking about a good where to go? Tsinghua university seems not enough, wu seems to be ok, not close to home, not to go to wu. Really think ah, wake up and stop dreaming!
Like martial arts novels, when you work force more and more deep, one day you suddenly found that, no matter how hard, like capability stalled, even pullback when find this kind of situation is very panic, picture of good things before, slowly is not good, as if by a bottleneck, how rushed all dozen don’t break, If you can’t make a breakthrough, it may be like this, or even worse, just like going overboard. At this time, I was very painful. When you can’t make progress or even go backwards no matter how hard you try, you will feel hopeless and feel a little depressed at that time.
Although encountered difficulties and setbacks, but speaking out of turn give up is not my style, so keeping a diary is the way I vent, will take their grievances and unhappy written, so help to relieve a little mood, time is the best medicine, slowly before didn’t seem so fidgety, also began to recover the previous level.
joke
Just when I felt that everything was progressing in a good direction, fate seemed to play a joke on me. There is a test called “Joint examination” for all art students, which is as important as the college entrance examination. It decides where you go to college. Art students is only half the time in learning literacy class) will eventually form your college entrance examination grade, before the entrance examination to a period of time, accidentally broke his leg, also means that can’t go to the entrance examination, when a art student cultural achievements to and im alone than grades, than he is, because didn’t attend the entrance exam, The identity that can give birth to only with culture goes reference college entrance examination, natural gao takes an examination of cent won’t too tall!
College entrance examination after wanting to reply to, but my dad doesn’t support, therefore also had a quarrel with him, think I don’t read, to do something, my aunt told me reading was very helpful, whatever it is, a diploma is not the same, (reading is really important), behind the calm for several days, think no matter what school to go to the first, also didn’t want to go to work or how, Reading first, and then enter oneself for an examination a normal school, when my mom just ask around and ask what major to learn good, later came to know that the computer is quite good, say boys also fit, let me go and ask the teacher online, when thinking about or learn about art, the other says: PS and art are concerned, learn to know what is the relationship between art and this?????? Cheated!!
Although life is hard for the first time, in this way in a fog of didn’t, but don’t regret, I still grateful, at least in the choice of high school in order to I tried, leaving no regret, also struggled hard, effort at that time I very handsome, so I appreciate your hard in high school, leads me to believe that the meaning of struggle, efforts will not deceive people, In this process also harvested a lot of a lot of, as for the result, is not important, in the process of harvest is more important than the result, it let me know that I want to do a better person, can do better!
(college) I pushed myself forward
A good person is not what you are in, but what you want to be. Just signed up for computer science, the university was not frustrated because of things before, but full of energy, this is a brand new start for me, living a new brilliant in university, and will be more efforts than before, hard, won’t make you successful, but will give you a higher chance of success, that’s enough!
Just to university of time, I am a even with “one finger” type of person, to make up for this, can only more practice, you know that to go to Internet cafes to download kingsoft typing, practice typing, the feeling of being with strange eyes looked at you, ha ha ha, I have, and at that time our school don’t call what Internet cafes, Internet cafes, called “wenchang study valley”.
In the university, I would take part in almost all activities and competitions, but there was a very strange point that I always ranked second in every competition, so my friend asked me why I always ranked second. Actually I also wonder, remember that a game is the deepest impression is the inside of the faculty, the software design contest, because need a partner, then, the goddess of our class, take part in the game, thinking about the goddess, but cannot make it, so I took the speech in advance, cui hu, in our school change again walk again, back again. Until the back roll melon cooked, finally came to power on the day of presentation, at that time, just remember the following hundreds of people watching, dense, the stage I was the only one at the time, really very nervous, you know what it feels like that kind of nervous to face twitching slightly, but have the back of the manuscript is quite skilled in advance, plus the goddess partner also very awesome, successfully completed the show together, And when I finished, the audience was applauding, and that was the first time I’ve heard that kind of applause in a while, and when I got to the stage, I heard people say, that’s really cool.
On the right is a group photo with the goddess of our class (PS: photo with my permission)
In the university, there are too many for the first time, for the first time when the learning committee member, in the student union for the first time, when the minister for the first time, the first scholarship (basically a scholarship every year I), for the first time to take an examination of the various branches of the whole class first, for the first time selling apples on Christmas Eve, the first speech in front of so many people, the first outside barbecue with friends and so on…
Also lost in university, and don’t know how should work hard, don’t know how should go forward, sometimes feel like university life was a backwater, but such is life, ordinary light is true, which have so many wonderful story go to wait for you, when you lost, go forward, we can do is try to efforts to try again, don’t live up to every day, Still remember at that time send a say, now look, still think will have touched
In university sometimes very tired, but very substantial, the university also will try to haul around all sorts of interesting things, remember yourself a music player, can search the song of the music player, song heard a period of time, for me, probably not special hobbies to learn the computer, but there’s a good point is, do a line loves a line, Learn a thing will be serious to learn, will regard this as my hobby, and strive for and efforts. I don’t have any regrets about college. The only thing I do have regrets about is not falling in love. If you can, we still want to have a great love in college.
(society) ME on the road
When I was still in school, my relatives asked me to go to Shenzhen, because they are all in Shenzhen, and I would also have a friend to take care of. However, I wanted to go to Shanghai more, because I read a story in college, and was influenced by the story, so I chose Shanghai.
Said it was two out-of-towners, working out of town. One goes to Shanghai and the other to Beijing. But in the waiting hall waiting for the bus, and have changed their minds, because the next seat of the people said that Shanghai smart, outsiders ask the way are charged; Beijing people are simple. When they meet people who have no food, they not only give steamed buns, but also give old clothes. People who go to Shanghai think, or Beijing is good, do not earn money also hungry die, fortunately, the car did not arrive, or really fell into the pit of fire. The person that goes to Beijing thinks, still Shanghai is good, give a person to lead the way can make money, still have what can’t make money? I’m lucky I didn’t get on the bus. Otherwise, you really miss a chance to get rich. So they met at the ticket counter. Those who wanted to go to Beijing got tickets to Shanghai, and those who went to Shanghai got tickets to Beijing. People who go to Beijing find that Beijing is really good. In the first month when he arrived in Beijing, he did nothing but not hungry. Not only is the space water in the bank lobby free to drink, but so are the welcome refreshments in the mall. People who go to Shanghai find that Shanghai is indeed a city where fortunes can be made. You can make money doing anything. There is money in leading the way, money in running a toilet, money in washing a person’s face in a basin of cold water. Money can be made with a little ingenuity and effort. The next day, he packed ten pieces of soil containing sand and leaves at the construction site, and sold them in the name of “flowerpot soil” to Shanghai people who did not see soil but loved flowers. He netted fifty yuan by making six trips between the suburbs that day. A year later, with “flowerpot soil” he actually had a small front in Shanghai. In the perennial street, he has a new discovery: some shop floor bright and black signs, a inquire just know is the cleaning company is only responsible for washing the floor is not responsible for washing signs. He seized the moment, bought a step ladder, a bucket, and a rag, and set up a small cleaning company to clean signs. Now his company has more than 150 workers, and its business has expanded from Shanghai to Hangzhou and Nanjing. Recently, he took a train to Beijing to study cleaning markets. At Beijing station, a rag-picker poked his head into the soft-sleeper car and asked for an empty bottle. As he handed it over, both men were stunned because they had changed tickets five years earlier
In one’s life, there are thousands of choices, big and small, good and bad, beautiful and ugly. Maybe a small choice at the beginning will bring profound influence to one’s life. Smart people know how to choose a positive and meaningful opportunity, they know how to be aggressive in this opportunity, seize the business.
Now out of work for a period of time, high school and college in those years have become the past, we need to do is to look ahead, all the past will help us become a better person, don’t let those days and effort, also don’t forget that once had encouraged us in the trough, one day we will become who we want to be, To do what we want to do, to love the people we want to love, I am still on the road, still working hard and forward!
I am a small farmer, afraid of what infinite truth, further have further joy, everyone come on!