Before the New Year’s bell rings, the old year seems to have passed. In 2019, I gradually lost myself on the way of doubting life and regretting myself. In 2019, I set sail again on the road of finding myself and pursuing technology!
About me
I, a mediocre but unwilling to degenerate after 95 young people, is about to finish his birth year.
After graduation in 2017, I failed in the postgraduate entrance examination and entered a state-owned company, disheartened but helpless. Time is not a thing, two years have passed, at the beginning what kind now also what kind, even the weight did not change, think about all want to smoke yourself two times!
More than seven hundred days and nights really seem to be a miniature, reflecting a picture, a picture I always thought I was trying to advance, but actually I was in the same place.
I had been complacent that I was fulfilling myself and working hard every day, but what I didn’t know was that this self-defined effort was the source of my own evil.
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Me, not me, regret me
In March of nineteen nineteen, I took my little master to leave for another company, and my direct leader was promoted in the previous two months. I was left alone, a person who could not do anything for himself. I regretted my life as well as myself. An egg is food when broken from the outside, or life when broken from the inside. Which do you choose? I chose the latter.
I don’t know if I’m breaking food or life.
But I’m not reconciled. I think I deserve better. What I want to break is life, is life.
November 19, I began to think about myself and took my first step. If you look at my history post, you’ll see that the first post was updated on November 11th. It could be a coincidence that it happened to be double Eleven.
I can’t remember what I did in 2019, and I’m afraid I wasted another year if I didn’t have weekly meeting notes on my laptop.
Luckily, I’m not, and my notebooks are so thick that they seem to tell it that 2019 is full.
I laughed, then fell silent again.
It seemed to me that you were someone who was positive and trying to get the job done every day.
But really, I’m just a person who doesn’t want to make progress and uses work to numb himself. Every day is too full, so that I have no time to think and blindly think that I work hard, day after day, living in a dream. I should repent, from beginning to end.
I remember I wasn’t like this, I was supposed to be like this:
The first half of my life
I don’t know, I’m confused, I regret.
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Me, find me, be me
Life doesn’t abandon you when you give up
I can still remember what I said to myself on the eve of graduation: I will go out for two years and see the world before I go back.
Now, two years have already passed, I successfully do the first half sentence: go out to play for two years.
Any thing, only oneself experienced, can realize all kinds of taste among them, possibly, this is life!
After all, I’ve been to a lot of cities I’ve never been to in 2019.
When the mind is not on the road, let the body travel.
First stop | lushan
I do not know the true face of lushan mountain, but I am in it.
I made an appointment to go to Lushan mountain with my colleagues. Listening to the ancient poetry in the textbooks since childhood, who thought, now can also stand on this land.
Because the whole journey is not a person, so there are a lot of happiness can be shared, it seems that this simple happiness is what I want to be happy now.
The second stop | wuzhen
On wuzhen bridge night, dream still call up to see the mountain
A person’s travel, alone to a trip to Wuzhen, stop and go.
I still remember that night I sat by the river in Wuzhen for a long time. After making a video call to my parents, I watched the night scene by the river.
The local boatmen were still punting and greeting customers, and the pubs along the shore began to sing.
I sat by the river late that night.
The third leg | west lake
Unable to leave Hangzhou, half of the lake is left
The same man passed by the West Lake on his way back to Shenzhen. He stopped by the Su Causeway and bai Causeway and stopped by the broken bridge.
After all is stopped for a long time, until the end of the music fountain also did not leave for a long time.
When I look back now, whether it is the clouds of Lushan Mountain, the lights of Wuzhen or the beautiful scenery of West Lake, I, a lonely traveler in a strange land, can find temporary peace, ordinary yet simple happiness.
I seem to slowly find myself again, after all, 30 can’t buy the happiness of 20, and I want to be happy now.
Life is hard, you have to turn on the lights of the road.
Think of 18 years, every time I was pressed by work, I would go to the beach and sit for a whole afternoon, the effect is amazing.
In nineteen nineteen, when I could not carry anything forward again, I would go to climb the mountain. I have climbed the highest peak in Shenzhen four times.
During the hottest days of August and September, I would run at the company gym at night after work, three times a week, and run outside in the park alone on weekends.
And now, I gradually like another sport, FIGHTING BC (body combat). After the previous class back pain, after persisting, now basically do not feel what.
Since I came to Shenzhen, I have not been sick for more than two years, and I seem to have saved a lot of money.
It’s hard to believe it’s not because you exercise, so you can do more exercise like me.
Save some money on the doctor, buy everything to eat delicious.
I am simple, I am ordinary, I am happy
The next
Me, still me, realize me
To promise yourself, do one by one, that is called, cool!
In November, the weather gradually turns cool, and it’s my favorite season.
Reviewing my working life for more than two years, I finally took my first step driven by my own will.
I am a person who is not good at writing things, it is not an exaggeration to say that rote. In the first half of 19 years, I wrote my technical summary, life summary and income summary every month. Although it was the same template, changing a few numbers and writing a few paragraphs each month, I still wrote every month.
Well, people always change a little bit, and there are always some of their own broken thoughts.
I write about life when my skills don’t improve, and when my life doesn’t go well, I turn to technology. In my opinion, there is always one on the way.
In October, I was thinking that I should summarize my two years of work experience from beginning to end. After coming to the company, I did Java development for a period of time, and then switched to data analysis, so I am not able to do a lot of skills. At that time, the idea was very simple: learn to output themselves, to make up for shortcomings, to find a direction.
Learn to output yourself: do not refuse to output because you are not good at expression, first write fifty or eighty articles before deciding whether to give up;
To detect and fill gaps: after work, I seldom learn technology systematically, so I do not achieve the optimal in many actual data processing and algorithm application processes, so I need to detect and fill gaps.
Find a research direction: Data analysis is not my favorite direction. I prefer to dig deeply and understand the internal characteristics of data, so I need to find a research direction and immerse myself in it.
In November, I published a series of articles related to data analysis on my public account “Xiaoyi’s Learning Notes”. So far, 35 original articles have been published. Introduction to Python, introduction to crawlers, and analysis of the actual crawler content (to list a few) :
Small white learn Python | you still say you don’t into the door
Little White learning reptilian series – Preparation
Small white learning crawler series – two ways to achieve
BeautifulSoup crawler series -BeautifulSoup
Crawler series – Requests for details
Reptilian combat – Hand in hand teach you to climb douban movie
Do you know how douban movies are rated
Maybe the content will be very simple, some friends may think that the actual combat project is too easy, it doesn’t matter, I am still on the way.
Later I will gradually improve the actual combat difficulty, and at the beginning, really very friendly to the novice (because the actual combat project is particularly detailed), do you want to try?
One project per week is not yet guaranteed, as it would be too detailed. My last few articles have been around 5000 words, so don’t be too detailed.
If you are also interested in data analysis, you are also welcome to pay attention to “Xiao Yi’s Study Notes” and add groups to communicate and learn from each other.
Here’s a quick story: I have a colleague who started the same year as me. In ’18, I remember we talked and I taught him how to get into data analysis. Now, he has taken this step earlier and become a data analysis guru, someone I need to admire.
You see, you can be admired if you want to be.
On the way to success, every one of us will become successful. Or late, or on schedule, after all, will not disappoint you.
I’m One, step one, and I’m on my way
2020 outlook
I had thought about how 2019 would be spent, but I didn’t expect such a surprise at the end.
Looking back at 2019, there is bitterness and unwillingness; There is growth, there is confusion; There are ordinary and there are great.
When I turn my head to look at the future of 2020, I seem to see one small milestone after another quietly standing up, their direction, all pointing to the distance.
2020 is about to set sail with the following beacons:
- Be able to become an excellent writer of gold nuggets;
- Become a data mining engineer;
- Adhere to the original article, can be greatly recognized by the big guy forward;
- Ten times as much personal influence as I have now.
There are already many interesting souls to admire and learn from along the way.
And now, this road, but also a more interesting you!
For life, we can be ordinary, simple and happy and for technology, we can do anything but ordinary
The last words
This year is about to pass, I plan to climb a mountain tomorrow.
I also hope I can meet more interesting souls in the coming year.
I am Xiao Yi, a data analysis practitioner. Welcome you to sail with me in 2020.
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