It has been nearly a year and a half since I officially joined a small company as a front-end programmer in August 2020. There is the enthusiasm and drive of the beginning, the satisfaction of achievement, and the confusion, tiredness and anxiety of later.
On the eve of graduation
I graduated from one of the lowest two colleges. In my senior year, I also took the postgraduate entrance exam, but I failed in the end. So the second semester of the fourth year began to concentrate on finishing the design, and consider the work of the matter. Due to the arrival of the epidemic, I have been staying at home in the first half of 2020. Since I have not done any complete projects independently in school, it is really impossible to export the projects after graduation solely by the knowledge in my brain. Fortunately, this is the Internet age, what can not be found online. Finally, I found a practical tutorial of hotel management system on b station. The back-end is SSM framework and the front end is JQuery, which belongs to the development of the front and back ends. It just meets my needs. I also want to learn knowledge seriously, so as to prepare for the future work, so I follow the video bit by bit, in addition to eating and drinking and sleeping every day, is holding the computer to do the project, so about two months, the project is basically completed, the rest is only the paper. Now looking back on that time, it is really full every day, feel a little bit of progress.
Then in the middle of June, I went back to school, got my graduation certificate, and packed my bags to go home. Although I didn’t take the graduation picture of the whole class, I finally put on the gown and took a lot of photos with my boyfriend.
Entering the workplace
At the end of June, I went to a strange city alone to look for a job, dragging my suitcase against my classmate’s house. After interviewing for more than half a month, I failed to find a suitable job. To be honest, it was really difficult at that time. Later, I heard from my classmates that I wanted to develop in first-tier cities, so I calmed down and thought about it. I might as well use this time to prepare for the interview questions and accumulate my skills. So we decided to leave for another city in a month.
In a twinkling of an eye to the middle of August, the students also resigned, we took the train for a night finally arrived at the destination. Then it was time to rent a house and prepare for the interview. I have to say that the rent in first-tier cities is expensive, love my money, woo woo. However, the interview went well this time. The first company I interviewed passed and the salary reached my expected level. Later, I interviewed two other companies, but the situation was not as good as the first one, so I chose the first one without hesitation and successfully joined the company.
The first project I took over was an e-commerce micro program on wechat. It was really slow at the beginning and I finished a page in two days. Later, my leader asked me to make an expected schedule for the project, so I carefully wrote down what tasks TO be completed every day and the final completion time of the project. It took me nearly a month to complete the last dozen pages of small programs. If I couldn’t finish the task that day at work, I would work overtime to finish the task. I was really motivated every day. Later, when the project was completed, the leader gave a good evaluation, and I was quite happy.
Work everyday
Gradually, my working life became more ordinary, and I devoted myself to the company’s own products and research and development projects. All of a sudden, I lost my goal and completed the company’s tasks step by step every day. In the first one or two months, I felt quite good and had a high sense of happiness. However, the stable life made me anxious, and I began to struggle with what kind of life I wanted to live in the future. I felt that it was not stable to stay in a small company, but I could enter a large company or state-owned enterprise, and my educational background was not enough. In fact, it is also a way to improve my technical ability, but I still worry that my academic degree will become a knot in my heart in the future, so I have been thinking about it for several days before deciding whether to take the postgraduate entrance examination. Began spending review, as a result, your always three minutes heat, insist on a period of time to study, behind underpowered, and then convince myself or for other reason not to one’s deceased father grind, look at the difficulty of one’s deceased father grind so big, even if the graduate school does not necessarily have a good job, didn’t take an examination of grinding is a lot of people, around one’s deceased father grind life is so good, why torture yourself, I gradually forgot my original goal. The thought of the heart is suppressed, does not mean that it disappeared, it will sprout one day. As a matter of fact, a few months later, I once again like playing chicken like, want to fight once, this time I did not think for a long time I want to do this thing, I told myself that the road of life is very long, three or two years is nothing, do not do it when you are young, to the old will regret it. But I overestimated my willpower, and I stuck to it for a while and then forgot my goal. In fact, these anxieties are always present in school, and they don’t go away in work.
future
Although the life has been muddled, but the goal still have to stand ah, after all, people rely on hope to live better! I hope I can:
- Make a plan before you do something
- Think less, do more
- Read 5 Books
- Output 5 articles
- Weight loss to 40 kg