01/02/2022 02:01

They had been blown away Scattered across the horizon Let's leave some of the stories unfinished Those feelings in the years have been difficult to distinguish true or false There are no flowers here now Fortunately, I once had your spring and autumn and winter and summer

———— Those Flowers (excerpt) – Hackberry tree

preface

Some days ago an accidental opportunity to see the company employees of an article yanglian asperses thousands of words of the annual summary, took 10 minutes to finish reading, read only feel surprised for heaven and man, there should be such a talented scholar not only lu good code, writing is also so romantic, good envy.

Originally want to visit some time, only pity big guy already left goose factory entered next river’s lake, leave a blog only. Let’s hope he spends his talent in his next arena.

After reading several of his articles, I felt more and more that he was a person full of classics, and I also read all his miscellaneous articles from 17 to 21, as if I was a girl who saw Zhong Jing at the first glance. At the beginning of the article is as young as a child, all feelings without skills, read only to the middle of the two young but with a point.

But look all the way down, found that the beginning of the dream to subvert the world’s dragon teenager has become a step by step to reach both the world, poor alone good voice of the World warrior. What he does and thinks is admirable.

Hence also is to begin to learn this warrior, every year the end of the year to oneself in the past year of the answer, and butt next year to do a plan, also do not want to let his life muddle along, then had this end of the year summary.

Fly away for

2021 is the end of one journey for me and the beginning of a much longer one.

At the beginning of 2021, I finished my internship in Zhihu and went back to school. On the way back to Nanchang from Beijing, there seems to be a feeling of hometown shyness, with a little shyness in expectation. Just off the plane, it is the classic drizzle in the South of the Yangtze River that I have not seen for a long time. It is like a girl from the South that I have not seen for a long time.

Guanglan Avenue, walking on this path, the past is like the flood of July and now, this road before we are often riding bicycles to brush steps, hanging takeout, climbing the wall all night early morning back to the dormitory, teasing the oncoming long-legged big beauty, or like a dog teasing the front lingering in the shade of the men and women. At that time, we are still good socialist youth, we have also made a vow that even after graduation, we also want to do the screw of socialism, give up love to ideal. Just did not think that we have not graduated secretly hair rust, internship for half a year back, we are already near the beauty, only leave me a person to continue to shine for socialist ideals, I became the last dog just.

Spent some time will be graduated from some of the things done, it was the winter vacation is coming soon, thinking of the outbreak and graduation approaching when this might be the last time we meet, say how also get to rub, but everybody was a poor scholar, body together may be enough to buy boxes of instant noodles, then find the home grill went for a take-away drink something in the dormitory, I still remember that barbecue restaurant was called Dachangbei. We pooled more than 50 yuan and bought several bowls of fried rice and several strings. The boss gave us a bottle or two bottles of beer at last, but it still made us happy for a long time. Saying is rich to come back how also want to put oneself at the beginning of the reluctant point of all the string to point again, eat meat to support, after it is to ridicule the school’s chili fried meat is up fifty cents, even ice mung beans is up to a seventy cents. Gathering together again is a few days ago, in order to pay tribute to those helpless pain can only eat cabbage mixed with rice days we in Nanchang mercilessly eat meat for 3 days, finally eat to the rear positions lost, home is already skin swallow splashing water, at any time open the floodgate flood discharge. Again, I miss the school’s one-yuan hand-pulled cabbage and 3.50 chili fried meat. Blanch!

I write a composition always like to use time flies fast-forward, actually at that time the concept of the time is not too much, but the word when you graduated to the university four years and we actually only two and a half years of time, a sudden outbreak of junior next semester as was forced to stay at home for half a year and then immediately to the school interview practice, The first semester of the senior year has come to an end, and the second semester of the senior year also has no classes to simply stay at home to review and prepare for spring recruitment. After getting the offer, everyone came to the school in May is almost gone, leaving only a few old friends, and finally a few cups of old wine mix ideal hurried down, endless melancholy and reluctant to give up.

At that time we young youth, the system of social criticism of human nature, without fear of road resistance and long, only road is: young see youth, all things are charming. Although the body does not drink, joy and guests drunk. From the temples on the white, not gratifying. Heart not reason, more feel the sun and moon drive. Wen Huan has tired to, full also think sleep. Spring only like a dream, no longer sad haggard. Send words young son, make Spring Festival diligently. Do not blame the aged.

Happy graduation, our road ahead is smooth, we have a long time to come, all say that there is no feast, but life where not to meet.

emotional

As a matter of fact, I have always been reluctant to show my personal feelings to the outside world. I always feel a little bit of suspicion that I will make a moan. It would be a little shameful to show my private and sensitive feelings openly, and I think I should be a quiet, reserved and reserved person. Then feel are different from animals is the biggest different is emotional thinking, always hide their emotions is and what is the different animal, people eager to communicate in the nature, desire for recognition, so there will always be Shared desire, human emotions may not be common, but a lot of people around him feel a binary your true feelings, with your people around your heart, And is a kind of magnanimous.

First, let’s talk about family affection. Maybe because I have lived alone for a long time since I was a child, I do not rely on my parents very much, and many of my relatives have incomplete names. In terms of family affection, I may be indifferent, and I even have an expectation about going to Beijing far away from my parents. It’s not that I have any conflict with my parents, but I feel more free without them. Son for my parents, as I think I can be roughly, although I don’t have to go to what people university, but also into tencent in graduate work, I still remember when I make a phone call and my mom said I into tencent, my mom said I don’t know what is tencent, I said you know ma huateng, my mom said I know jack ma, then give me bang, When I told my mother how much my salary when my mother may not be more happy, may also think THAT I entered the pyramid selling bar, the former told million told me to pay attention to safety bar. As a child from a peasant family, the parents may think that the goal of their children’s life is to get a wife and have a child.

However for supporting the family this matter paste a oneself still have no problem at present, marry a daughter-in-law this is a complex and difficult whole working procedure, very ashamed of say since high school times had a green first love, after never talked about love again, because of this matter I lead even once suspect me to be gay…… In fact, IT is not that I am egoistic, but I read the book Love in the Time of Cholera after being brokenhearted in high school. At that time, I set up the view of love that I had desire for a person and that was love, so I thought love was too thin and without any support. It was not until I saw my first love again, Distorted Day, that throbbing was speechless, that throbbing was like a monster sealed by Pandora’s box, crazy impact on the box to break the box and out, I could only press the box to install my inner calm and care. I thought I had read a lot of books, experienced a lot of things, met a lot of people, long ago can calmly accept anyone, but actually still underestimated the charm of love. But at present, the work of game comics is full of my life, and I have no time to distract myself from other things. I hope the leaders and colleagues don’t introduce girls to me any more. I love work better than girls.

Work life

For 20 years in the second half has been working in Beijing for a period of time, so is 21 years came to Beijing is already familiar, my first impression of Beijing is a melting pot, everyone in this big melting pot stirring refinement, a handful of good quality material is to stay, the rest are stirring scattered rags the last discharge this big melting pot. I feel that I am an ordinary person, not a good material, and I do not know when I will be stirred into pieces by this great furnace, lose seven souls and six souls, and finally only a broken body to walk in the world. I can’t be a man of action and knowledge like Wang Yangming. I can only try my best to be a man of integrity.

Generally speaking, the working days in Tencent are very meaningful. It gives me a platform to see the existence of many awesome people. In front of them, I feel that I have missed the experience of 10 years, and I feel the world is uneven. I got a lot of care, and I was lucky to meet people who were kind.

A person working in Beijing is really lonely, therefore I am dedicated to pull the qi brother and waves are set a learning team, every day together video attachment euphemistically called mutual supervision work to learn, but it is just too lonely want to find two unlucky vent, end also didn’t learn what, are chatting kan fart, they also not tired, maybe they also is lonely, Or maybe the wanderer is actually lonely.

In the past one year, body is actually feel less once upon a time, in a dormitory before the sixth floor not aid, and does not take out one mouthful, atmospheric now last 6 layer of small buildings are tired panting, the weight is also in the last year rose by almost 20 jins, vision is also greatly reduced, now also need glasses to see the big beautiful leg on the road, Take good care of yourself this year, and try to find time to go to the gym to see beautiful women. Exercise is secondary, after all, it is better to save worry and enjoy your body.

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When I opened my cell phone, my old friends in the group were making fun of me for the last time WHEN I got drunk and held my cat to have a big drink together. The sound of firecrackers outside the window was scattered and finally stopped.

In the past year, the foot has also entered the valley, a warm and cold, tears only consciously.

In this era and the world, we are all small, a wave of the era hit the individual body that is a stormy wave. I don’t care about the end result of this dust, life between heaven and earth, suddenly like a traveler, life is also he huan, death is also why.

Poor and stronger, do not fall qingyun ambition. A New Year, a new world, I do not know where the road ahead, perhaps there will be a loss and pain, but success is only temporary, failure is the main melody of life, brave to face it.

Finally, I wish The end of Winter, happy New Year.

What a beautiful and sad world it is We hugged and laughed and cried I have come from afar to meet you I went wild for him I am the shining moment Is across the sky change the moment of fire

———— Born as summer flowers (excerpt) – Hackberry tree