The son said on the river: The dead are so busy that they don’t give up day and night.
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I am the ear, a pseudo-literary programmer who always wants to export knowledge (your praise is the biggest motivation for my creation).
It’s July 2020, and I’m here to write my own story for the Nuggets.
From graduation to work, to calculate today is a whole year, in fact, in my memory, I have been a less than 20, energetic student party, and in reality I have been a has been twenty two, medlar tea Buddha department of youth.
I believe many people will have this feeling, obviously I seem to have nothing to do, but to get married age, especially in the north digging friends should know, the family to get married early this matter is very persistent.
Every time I feel that time passes fast, I can’t help thinking of the sentence of the deceased ru Sifu. I know this sentence very early, but just as you know many truths but still lead a bad life, it will always be knowledge rather than wisdom in my place, until you really start to think:
Oh, it turns out I’m twenty-two, not twenty, and then I start looking back. What have I done in the last year that I can be proud of? Flag at the age of twenty. Am I done at twenty-two? Dare to tell yourself that life will be better and better in the future? Are you always working towards the direction you want?
When the answer to each of these questions was NO, I began to feel nervous. I had the time to work hard and I saw it slip through my fingers.
Not long ago, ZHIhu was asked: What are some things young people should know earlier? “There were so many answers, I looked over and over, and all of them made sense, but I still felt that I could not say what I really wanted to say until I saw an answer that I still remember so deeply that I will never forget his words as long as I live.
‘I always feel like my life hasn’t started yet. I always feel young,’ he said. “I suddenly realized that I had probably always been in this mindset. When I was thinking about doing something, I was always preparing, thinking that I could do it when I was ready, but I was never ready, and I never did it.
Maybe some people think this is procrastination, I don’t think so, I think this is the mentality of the problem and execution has little to do with, maybe this is Ma Yun said: think about a thousand roads at night, in the morning to follow the original road.
For example, let’s take digging Gold as an example. This is an idea I had when I graduated last year. I joined Digging Gold very early. On April 28, I registered with this plan, but MY vision has been delayed for a year, until a few days ago I wrote my first article, this article thanks to the attention of all the digging friends, there are some reading likes.
In the past, I always felt that it was too early to write an article like this. I always felt that my skills were not good enough and my understanding was not deep enough, and what I wrote would only be disliked by myself and others. Therefore, I have been preparing and waiting for a year.
Have I made a qualitative leap in my skills during this year of waiting? I don’t think so, but I posted my first post in July of this year.
Why did you start writing? Because my mindset has changed.
Why the change of mentality? Because two things happened.
What two things? Seeing that answer on Zhihu is one thing, and the following story about my first half year is another.
I believe that everyone is more or less self-aware about his problems.
If you have the mindset described above, take some strength from my story and my article.
I’ve always been an optimistic person.
Outbreak of the past
At the beginning of 2020, the epidemic was just coming. At that time, I was still in Shanghai, the novel coronavirus did not have a name, and I was still scrambling for tickets to go home for the Spring Festival.
After putting a holiday I go home to our city of time, in the rental master also asked me which come back, I said Shanghai. He asked me if I had the disease in Shanghai. I said yes, and then I said on the news that Wuhan was going to be closed down, he said how is that possible, wuhan such a big city can not be closed down.
After wuhan really closed the city, our city also gradually spread to block the news, slowly the city traffic and intercity traffic stopped, and I with a keen sense of smell in our hometown sealed the day before the city back to Shanghai, did not return to the work of friends are no accident trapped in the hometown.
For the epidemic, I feel indifferent, just go out is troublesome, I believe as long as we cooperate with the country, we will always be able to pass.
Back in Shanghai, WHERE I had just rented a small apartment, I spent about 10 days alone, and then started telecommuting in dark mode. I didn’t have to leave the house, didn’t have to worry about being late, didn’t have to wear a mask, and got up at 9 o ‘clock every day to start a conference call, followed by a day’s code.
Although the economy has been hindered due to the epidemic, the demand has not been hindered, and so has the launch time of the system.
The epidemic has little impact on my life. Maybe it is because the whole family is not hungry when one person has enough to eat. There is no pressure like the married uncle to pay the mortgage on the rv.
It is a pity that I could not see my girlfriend who I had not seen for a long time during the epidemic period at home. I still miss her very much in my heart, but I do not know why, with the growth of age, men used to be easy to say love words are a little embarrassed now.
After working from home for about three weeks, I was allowed to work in the park in Shanghai, and my working mode was adjusted accordingly.
During my working period, major we-media also went to work one after another. One day, I saw an article on an official account, which probably said that the epidemic was the flare of love, causing many couples to break up, and one of the main reasons for breaking up was the distance.
I can not help hissing laugh, long distance break up, that we these long distance love how to live.
The dark forest
The world is like this, never laugh at others, because someday you are guaranteed to be the hero of the story, be the one to be laughed at.
Retribution came soon, I will always remember that day, Qingming Festival, April 4.
At that time, Shanghai was not very strict, and it was drizzling that day. I went out by bus to pick up some things from my friends. When I came back, IT was about six or seven o ‘clock, and then I had a meal, took a bath.
After a few words, she said, Let’s not be together, it was eight o ‘clock.
I thought I was wrong, and I read it again, and I couldn’t believe it, and I asked her if she was sure, and she said yes.
Then I called her, the phone soon through, then I have to say words, mouth several times, only intermittently speak up.
About 50 minutes later, we’re done. Hang up.
I tried to persuade her to stay several times, but she showed no sign of budging, and my mind went like this:
There is no third party between us, but also because girls care about the details of the end of six years of long-distance love, this is also my first love.
After the breakup, I couldn’t believe it for a while, and I made some mistakes because I didn’t see it in the right way.
Since then I’ve had occasional emotional breakdowns, on the road, on the bus, in the office at all times, places and places.
I thought a lot about our breakup. Maybe it was because during the epidemic period she was idle at home (not graduating yet), and I was working in the dark, snubbed her. If a woman does not demand too much from you materially, she will want more than others emotionally, but I did not understand at that time.
Later, I went back to find her, but it didn’t have much effect. To this day, I still feel sorry for her.
Is the most difficult to understand the dream of youth, a fool and pay empty.
My heart is eternal life
After the breakup I was really depressed for a long time, about three months, just a few days ago, slowly woke up.
All this time I’ve growled and crowed and refused, but it’s just like the curious Case of Benjamin Button:
You can be mad as a mad dog at everything around you. You can rant and curse the fates, but at the end of the day, you have to let go.
When three months have passed and nothing can be done, you can’t be so reluctant as to cling to them.
It was like branding a soldering iron into your heart every day. It hurt at first, but you get used to it.
I began to slowly adjust the mood, slowly returning to normal state of mind and life, occasionally drink a bottle of iced coke, buy some iced fruit on Sunday, what also don’t want to do when they see the adventures of king luffy and sniper, picked up three months did not see learning materials, and pick up my old flag and efforts to start setting goals.
I’ve been reading a lot of mind-altering articles, including productivity tips like the Pomodoro Technique, for which I bought a Tomato Clock.
I began to try to calm myself down, no matter what I did, I would not have too much burden on my mind. I set a small goal first, such as devoting myself to one hour every day, and then I could let myself watch One Piece as a reward. The accumulation of small goals would eventually become the cornerstone of a big goal.
I apply this mentality to write above, do not miss the bamboo tube sheng Rain and dew thing, so that before always feel can not write things out of their own slowly calm down to type, write this matter as work every day to spend some time to concentrate on the source code, and finally write out can make their own satisfactory article.
Xiongguan road is really like iron, now move from scratch.
Reading this article digging friends, we have all kinds of frustration in life, I hope you in the face of pain, can give yourself a time buffer, sad sad drink drink tears tears, but do not be any difficulties to get up after a fall, is the past will eventually, is the people have to face.
This is how people grow up little by little, although the price of growth is often very painful.
In Digging gold, THERE are two authors I admire the most, one is @front end dissuading teacher, the other is @Aobing, they are both authors on the list of authors, I think you are familiar with them than ME, they are not only technical bull, the story behind is also more inspirational.
The front end dissuader is not highly educated, self-taught front end, dead knock front end, become a front end big bull, and the output of many high-quality articles, look at his level and the number of articles know how high the quality of his articles, even he went to interview some interviewers have read his articles.
Aobing is a person who changes the status quo of his family life with his own efforts, and he can be regarded as the proud next generation of his family. This is also my goal. His article has been on the hot list all day long, and I think everyone has also read it.
They come to this stage, behind must also pay a lot of hard, this is also the price of growth.
If you’re feeling down one day because of something, come back and see how I worked my way out of it. I hope that will give you strength.
Life is long, and we move on.
Things in the past, let it pass, just like Lufei can also calm to xiaoyu say the death of Ace.
Afterword.
If you have a girlfriend who you think is marriageable, surprise her every now and then and let her know you’re there for her, whether it’s a little gift or a snack or an unannounced hug downstairs.
These little things in love, are the straw in the camel’s body, I made this mistake, so I don’t want anyone to do it again.
I don’t want anyone to make the same mistake again. I don’t want anyone to let her down because of a little thing. I don’t want anyone to cry and regret because of a little thing.
I hope that both sides can often put down the face of communication, after all, two people, two bodies, two souls and two heads, you do not say that maybe the other party really love you but really do not know what you want, so that gradually far away, and regret.
Feelings of small things, after accumulation will become irreconcilable events.
I hope everyone can cherish her/him.
In the second half of the year, I will continue to write and produce high-quality original articles. And I have agreed with @Youarc that I will arrive at LV3 by the end of August. I hope you will pay more attention and support.
If there’s something you want to do, go ahead and do it (maybe you want to be a writer, too). Push yourself. Don’t waste your youth.
If you have the opportunity not to do it, you may regret it later. After all:
Mountains and seas can be flat.
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