The foregoing:

At the moment, I am listening to G.E.M. ‘s “occasionally” ~~~

Body:

Maybe the diary is to write whatever comes to mind, whether happy or uncomfortable. When I write, it becomes a memory. On the contrary, when it comes time to sum up this year, there will be ten thousand words in my heart, but which one should I say first? Abrupt, abrupt.

About the outbreak:

This year started with the epidemic, but it is not over yet. My year also started with the epidemic

At the end of January, when the Chinese New Year was approaching, my sister called me and said that I would go back to Shanghai first from Shenzhen and then go back to Celebrate the Chinese New Year together. Very happy, so the night I came to Shanghai, I went to the airport to meet her. Late that night, I got the flu. It was the time when the whistler, Martyr Li Wenliang, blew his whistle. It is also the beginning of the realization that COVID-19 really exists. Of course, I didn’t panic, just like a normal flu. Later, the leader let me not to go to work first, go to the hospital examination rest. I went to the hospital for a check-up, and the doctor said that it was only the flu that was detected so far, not sure that it was COVID-19. After a day of rest, he left for his hometown.

On the way home…

Remember that day is six or seven in the evening from Shanghai, with my cat. The little guy jumped up and down in curiosity. The first half was still laughing and joking (I was still suffering from the flu…) .

It wasn’t long before the traffic jam started, and families were chatting about the outbreak and what was going to happen, but what no one knew was that the next few hours, the news they would receive, would make the atmosphere extremely tense.

At around 9 o ‘clock in the evening, when the traffic was still blocked on the expressway, more than 20 cases of COVID-19 were confirmed on weibo. A few minutes later, more than 60 cases were reported on weibo, and then 300,500,600,1000… The numbers went up like crazy, and along the way, they gasped. (At first, we were wondering how far this outbreak would go, but the sudden news did not allow us to speculate. Instead, we should prepare ourselves for the present.)

When seeing the 1000+ news, my mind stopped for a while, first shocked, then scared, and then sober to do a good job of protection. I called my parents at home, urging them to stockpile masks and disinfectant. (At that time, the family did not feel serious…)

I’ve been home all night. Feeling the safest place, the whole person also relaxed some ~

No New Year this year…

After getting home, I have a good rest at home, after all, I still have a cold. Then planned to prepare for the second day of the New Year to visit relatives, was told that Wuhan lockdown, not allowed to visit, this year to call video New Year. Therefore, I stayed at home for a year, and my memory only stayed in the shadow of the epidemic, not the joy and happiness of previous years.

Later, said to seal the village, closed the road. So on the seventh day of the Chinese New Year, I returned to Shanghai early, came to Shanghai, and continued to stay in isolation and work at home. Go out once a week, buy supplies and weekly rations. Armed to the teeth. (I want to put an end to this dark period…)

About the job:

At 9:21 am on March 16, my leader sent me a wechat message (COVID-19 working at home). The year-end promotion and pay raise have been implemented, and the ranks have been raised two levels. A raise. Put it on hold because of the pandemic. Because the leader talked to me at the end of the year and promised to give me the treatment I should get. (Here insert a digress, about the promotion and salary increase, hope to see this article of friends, must take the initiative to find the leadership to put forward your needs. At work, it is very difficult to pay the job. Especially in the Internet industry, as long as you feel your ability is here, take the initiative to fight for what you deserve, because the leader is very busy, he will not understand all the employees below, so a good swift horse must take the initiative to find your bbler. Be clear about what you want.

Knowing this news, first joy, two levels in a row, can be said to be very honored, and it is not easy. Here I would like to thank the former leader’s recognition and affirmation. Then came the depression. Because the raise is on hold, which might make me feel like I’ve been given a blank check, I’m sad. The leader sensed my mood and promised to raise my salary every six months after the epidemic ended, and the fastest increase would make up for me. I was moved at that time, to be honest, because the former leader made it clear that he needed me. But seems to inadvertently give me a bunch of bad checks…)

Later, I struggled with this question for a long time, deciding whether to leave or stay. At that time, I felt that the company was in crisis, and I should try my best to do what I could, and the department needed me and the leader recognized me. But the other side. I’m doing what a level five can’t do, getting paid a level three. It’s not nice. Of course it depends on the individual, I can’t convince myself. And then I reflect on my personal values and what I want to do with my life. I decided to leave XC (not to mention the name).

After that, I gave myself a holiday for half a month and went out for a circle. In April, the domestic epidemic was initially stabilized and under control. In those two weeks, I figured out a few things.

About the Company:

From the moment I entered the Internet, I have been trying to explain to myself what kind of company an Internet company is. My stereotype is that it is a technology company and technology comes first. But that year and ten months at XC seemed to be telling me things that I might not understand. Companies live by their business. In fact, I have always known that a principle theory is: a good product not only to do well, but also to sell out. To do a good premise is of course to technology, the premise of selling is to understand the market, know the demand. Here I also read lang Xianping and Wu Xiaobo books (with a laugh). Some of the economic theories are not deep enough, but they are superficial.

So Internet companies, really business is the highest equity holders? Does the technology have to give in to the business? At that time, in the cognition of people who felt that technology was the highest interest, it was unacceptable, and it was not recognized and disagreed. (It still is). Xc is very business-centric. Maybe this is, from the beginning, planting the seeds to leave.

So what I need is one: a technology-focused Internet technology company. This is the last stubbornness and persistence of technical people!

About myself

Finally, the most want to talk about a paragraph, also hold for a long time. (But may not be able to fully express, as if he is a person who can not express…)

As an undergraduate who graduated in 18 years and was not a “new-born calf” majoring in IT, IT was really a strange accident to enter an Internet company. Actually, I’d like to thank my immediate leader, who, even now, when I talk to him, says he was right about me. It is a kind of long-term recognition (giggling again). Just entered the company, from a small white nothing, simple command line began to learn step by step. Now I can write a full stack project independently (still a rookie). Can think during the experience of all kinds, summed up in one word: pain. And the pain will last forever.

In October 2013, I got in touch with the front end, and showed my great interest and talent (self-mockery), plus the enthusiasm of the front end friends who taught me “hand to hand”. So I tried for countless nights. In the end, he lived up to them. There is little success in learning. During this period, know and know cousin: table serious (table serious). It can be said that at that time of the most painful, my cousin is undoubtedly my spiritual food. It may be a warm song, it may be a pet that understands you, or even he/she may be a leader of your spiritual world. The above is my opinion, can not express all ao. Now think of cousin, there is a little can not help but tears in the eyes. I just haven’t heard from him for so long, I don’t know how he’s been. Miss.

After leaving XC at the end of March 20, I moved to a new company where I no longer had my friends (I prefer to call them friends rather than colleagues). Adapt and grow in the new environment. I’ve grown a lot here. I also made projects big and small on my own. This also makes me jump out of the “well” thinking in XC before, maybe this is a bit ungrateful, or bad, but I still want to write like this, because, out of there, I see a bigger world. Looking back, I still want to thank it. Because it has made me who I am today.

About learning

In fact, everyone has his own way to learn, to acquire knowledge, but also has his own way. I have some afraid to share their own learning methods, not mean, just feel that they are not qualified. Still need more experience and growth. Of course I’m not that good. To be honest, I’m starting to feel like my abilities aren’t worthy of my goals. Therefore, it is more important to settle down, to move in the direction of heart yearning, to do what feels right in the heart, and to insist on doing it. Hope you are the same, for their own better future, in order to their heart want to look like, refueling.

At the end

At the moment, I am listening to Huang Yida’s blue Sky ~~~

Though he was writing to himself, he was also writing to you. Bye ~

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